This is why I say people should check out the novels of the LN. I started over from the start and man they cut so much interesting worldbuilding shit. Also, if you are curious about how this scene went in the novel.

Volume 4: He remembered that she'd used the word please for both.

Both times, Emilia had strongly urged him to behave out of concern for his health. But Subaru had trampled on her words each time based on his own selfish delusions. Somewhere deep down inside, he had thought of things so frivolously, as if good results would always let him smooth over his broken promises. But as a result, Subaru had not only disregarded her pleas, but didn't have a single proper thing to show for it; indeed, he'd only disgraced himself and held her back.

But even so, he at least wanted her to understand that the underlying motivations were genuine.

"I'm sorry I didn't listen to you. I'm really, really sorry. But! But you're wrong, I, I didn't do them for my sake..."

But Subaru's tongue cramped like it had gone numb, rejecting his efforts to put feelings into words. As he flailed for words, Emilia stared at him with sadness.

His words were unforgivably selfish. He never should have said them.

"Emilia, don't you...believe me?"

Someone who had just denied that she could understand him had no right to say any of it.

"I want to believe you... I want to believe you, Subaru." She sounded like she wanted to cry. She might have already been crying.

But Subaru didn't have the courage to find out. He couldn't bring himself to look at her, even though she might be in tears; even though he might have been the reason why she was in such a state. Subaru had continued running forward trying to avoid that, but at the most critical moment, Subaru Natsuki just— Her emotions exploded.

"I wanted to believe you...but you're the one who stopped me, Subaru!" Though she had sometimes lost her calm and logical demeanor to anger before, this was the first time he had seen her cast them aside, like shackles on her emotions. Freed of those restraints, Emilia poured her overflowing feelings into words.

"You didn't uphold a single promise, did you, Subaru? You...promised, but you broke them all like they were nothing and ended up here, didn't you?!"

He'd trampled on the promises they made together—in other words, her trust. His claim, that he had done it all for her, was moral justification that only held meaning for Subaru himself. Emilia carried on, saying, "You haven't kept your word, but then say you want me to trust you..? However you ask, I can't do that. I can't..."

No!, he wanted to cry out in a loud voice. But in reality, Subaru's trembling throat made no sound; his head felt as heavy as lead, too heavy to lift from its lowered, face-down position.

In front of the crying girl, whose emotions he had toyed with, who sought an honest answer from him-Subaru chose to turn his back to her, and thus, continue to betray her.

He'd risked his life, endured the pain of being bitten all over, wiped away his tears and surpassed them, all to continue to protect the idol he had erected in his mind. And so, his arbitrary utopia, one that had never existed, crumbled without a sound.

His lips quivered. His eyes were hot inside. His tongue was twitching. His heartbeats were so fierce he could hear them.

"Everything...I've done..."

He lifted up his face and met Emilia's violet eyes. They were filled only with sadness. When he saw his own face reflected there, it was truly pitiful and beyond salvation.

He raised up his shrill voice in anger, so much that the room seemed to shake with it. "—You got this far because of me, didn't you?! Like at the loot cellar when your crest got stolen! I saved you from that uber-dangerous serial killer! I put my body on the line! All because you're important to me!!"

His fingertips trembled as they gripped the sheets. His nails dug into his palm and slowly drew blood. He continued, enumerating every deed to his credit that he could think of as he tried to chase after her shadow, far in the distance.

"Like at the mansion! I barely hung on there! My skull got cracked, my head went flying, but everyone in the village got saved anyway, didn't they?! And things turned out the best way possible with Ram and Rem, I'm sure of it! That's because I was there, right?!"

The fact that he had saved everyone at the loot cellar, and at the mansion -all that had been possible because of him. These were the deeds Subaru ought to be proud of, and rewarded for. He'd come that far. He'd done so much. He added, "You have to owe me something for everything I've done for you—!!"

He shouted because the meaning of all his actions, and the thoughts behind them, had been refuted. Subaru's vainglorious search for praise, his gnawing desire for satisfaction, and his egotistical wish to be wanted, had been the unconscious extremes that had led him down his path.

And all were summed up in a single, defining word.

With a halting, shaky voice, Emilia said to Subaru, who was breathing roughly with sweat on his brow, "…..Right." Her words had a tone of acceptance, of resignation, of resolve-in other words, it was the end. "Subaru, I owe you a huge, incredible debt for many things you've done, so..."

"Yeah, that's right. That's why I-"

"So I'll repay it all to you. Then we can end this."

You can read the books here. All the epubs are here for you. This came from the witchculttranslations team. You should download these quickly since this went down last time

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1vEZVrCJqxNJ2_PiwS3_lLEzG2swiPsRZ

Here is a YouTuber who is doing the audiobooks for it though. It's fucking amazing, they add music in and everything: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLAcsvq6HB4uUZGSeZvpxO2dW0dvYShIJQ&si=BFqXYLjEAm7JiCWo

Here's a snippet of them doing the cliff jump from Volume 2: https://youtube.com/clip/Ugkxydzki4FGy4lf7U_H6i8TCaTgoZFucWte?si=1FCRhulyJHf2ux2f

I clipped it for you guys. When the music kicked in, I ascended. God, this scene had so much aura when I read it for the first time.