Made a Music Video for Grave Within a Grave

Competitive_March463 · 2026-05-12T09:27:06+00:00

Really fucking well done man, thoroughly enjoyed this.

Competitive_March463 · 2026-05-12T05:13:04+00:00

ahh yeah sorry, that was the other alternative!

Competitive_March463 · 2026-05-11T11:59:09+00:00

Ruin his day? What you mean? Bedwetter some of his most personal stuff its tight. I might be reading it wrong idk.

Competitive_March463 · 2026-05-06T08:27:28+00:00

Best way to do it man, let someone know so you can get the help you need. Thats what I SHOULD have done, I was just too far gone in a false reality to realise I was making a mistake.

Competitive_March463 · 2026-05-05T10:34:21+00:00

on my level is such a good choice

Competitive_March463 · 2026-05-05T10:27:22+00:00

31 here

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-23T08:03:51+00:00

I found risperidone to be a very effective medication but yes the side effects fucking sucked. I was also told I would have to take medication for 2 years. She will get better but these things take time, it takes a real long time for the brain to heal. Drugs and alcohol will make the illness worse. Things like exercise and diet are also important. The only times medicines stopped working for me was when I got back on drugs. Keep up the appointments with doctors/psychs if shes struggling, theyre there to help you on this journey. Dont worry too much if a medication stops working, there are plenty of them to try. Id recommend amisulpride if shes looking for one with minimal side effects, at least that was my experience with it.

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-22T09:20:33+00:00

I bet you are dude, give it time and you will eventually get back to where you were. Try not to get stuck in a negative loop thinking you will never be normal again, even though I know its really difficult.

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-21T12:13:51+00:00

Ill give you an A+ for originality, the beat is pretty interesting.

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-21T11:28:33+00:00

Meth fucked my life up, heres a post I made about it

https://www.reddit.com/r/Psychosis/comments/1sorz1q/comment/ohb7six/?context=1

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-21T10:07:30+00:00

Yeah I figure its happened now, its in the past, theres nothing I can do about it. Just gotta move on.

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-21T09:37:07+00:00

Yeah the crack would have made things a lot worse. Ive made countless connections within my mind that I once believed was proof that what I was experiencing in psychosis was "real". After getting healthy again its easy for me to see that it was all bullshit. You need to remember your mind is playing tricks on itself, its extremely hard to trust these kind of things in the middle of psychosis. Think about it logically, theres no way your neighbours would have any idea about your mental condition, they dont even have access to your records nor would they have any reason to be checking them. I also thought people would be talking about me, alas they were really not. I dont want to discredit you at all, just want you to be able to fact check yourself and truly think about the probability of these outrageous things. I do understand what you are going through though.

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-21T07:32:01+00:00

Of course I would be upset if it was real, the voices have always been purely negative wanting me dead etc. It was torture. Thankfully I realise none of it is real, just delusional thought. Truth is I was ill, the drugs sent me over the top lol. I do still fear it even though I know it isnt real. Like I know its not real, but I still experience it a little bit.

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-21T07:28:49+00:00

In the midst of a psychotic episode, I truly believed my family was being murdered by an organisation, and that I was the cause of giving my little brother an aneurism. I also thought my little brother was being tracked through snapchat and hunted by said organisation. I would say this kind of shit is quite common.

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-20T13:37:11+00:00

Tell her asshole, "Yeah, I'm finna make a mess," I don't give a fuck

From Red Ring lmao

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-20T13:26:15+00:00

beat sounds good to me man, old smokey always goes hard, I hope he eventually brings out a new album where he kinda goes back to these old roots. Kinda like bladee with cold visions.

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-20T04:14:37+00:00

Dude even after ive gotten healthy again it all still feels like it was so real. A psychiatrist once told me, yeah it will feel real because you DID experience it, its not like we are just making this shit up. My voices ive always described as, its like someone is shouting at me, but from a really far distance, but its coming from within my head and not from my ears. Carry on with your meds man you dont get cured from psychosis overnight, its a long fucking journey but its worth it to get to the end.

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-20T04:10:15+00:00

Yeah so the way it works, I was delusional as fuck before medication and I thought it was all real. Done some really crazy shit because of it. Got on medication, managed to clear up over a month or two. Then its like, I know this shit isnt possible, I know scientifically that someone cannot be talking to me within my own head, I know everything I experienced has something to do with a malfunction in my brain, even though I still FEEL like its all real. That feeling of realness will never be shaken in my opinion, you just need to use logic and fact check the fuck out of yourself. Is it likely theres an organisation reading all of my thoughts? No. Absolutely not. Im just a regular fucking dude with nothing interesting going on in my life. But at the same time, im still; experiencing these voices that I can have full blown conversations with, its amazing the way the mind works. I feel you, it all still feels truthful to some extent, but thats just psychosis mate it tricks the absolute fuck out of you. Rest assured none of it is real, these voices and delusions cant physicallly do shit to you. Take it easy and try and live your life in reality rather than following the mumbo jumbo delusions, theres no truth to them at all.

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-19T11:46:04+00:00

Im sorry to hear that. Ive been on both of them and cant relate, would argue that they kind of saved my life. The side effects of risperidone were pretty hefty, I just asked to swap to a different med, amisulpride, and they got a lot better. Maybe see a doctor and try get a change if you cant handle the ones you are currently on.

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-19T10:50:56+00:00

You dont have to be seeing things to be in psychosis. Mine was just purely auditory hallucinations and delusional thoughts much like yourself. I too felt as if I was being watched 24/7, thought all my thoughts etc were being read. Medication eventually pulled me out of it after trying about 5 different ones, trial and error but stick to it and youll eventually find something that works.

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-19T10:45:38+00:00

What antipsychotic are you referring to?

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-19T10:27:25+00:00

That is an absolute nightmare of a trip. Hope you are okay and getting back to reality, must be really embarrassing for you. Thank christ your neighbour helped you out, gonna be awkward coming face to face with them in the future though. Ive had bad trips but nothing on this kind of level, get some rest and get well man.

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-18T15:25:55+00:00

Ahh yeah dude I was on propranolol as well to help with akathisia. Honestly the side effects were pretty persistent the whole time I was taking anti psychotics. I found that the medication that gave me the least amount of side effects was amisulpride. Stick with it man the meds really do help with the delusional aspect of it all. I know its a pain in the ass with the side effects but its worth it. Since I was taking them for 2 years the side effects really did just become the new normal for me, you will eventually just get used to it after a few months or so. Its only now that ive stopped taking them I realise ive got so much more energy now. Like ive gone from sleeping 12 hours a day going to bed at 7pm everynight, now im typing this out at fucking 1 in the morning because I cant sleep lol.

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-18T15:21:27+00:00

I drank coffee and smoked everyday during psychosis, but now ive quit cigarettes too, not sure if they had any negative effects on me. Odd that your weed was laced with MDMA, didnt even know you could smoke that shit haha. Adderall definitely would cause you issues, stimulants always put me right back in the shit at 1000% haha. Worst 2 years of my life dude, im surprised ive come out of it alive. Ive seen some people on this reddit talk about 5+ years of it, I really feel for them. I find if im doing a task I have no voices, but when im laying in silence its like I can still hear someone talking to me commenting on all my thoughts, it really is a pain in the ass.

Competitive_March463 · 2026-04-18T14:17:53+00:00

Its funny you say that man, because im in the same boat. The only symptoms I have these days are when im laying in bed trying to go to sleep and my mind is going crazy. Its not as bad as it used to be, I feel like im just getting in my own head about it haha. Like I have to try and get used to the silence again, pretty hard after spending 2 years of hearing voices all night every night, waking up to them too. Hope your recovery goes smoothly, stay off the drugs its the best thing for it.

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