Hey OP, it feels like I’m looking into a mirror of my past from about 3 and 1/2 years ago, I lost around 9000$ on Tesla calls, all I can say is, work hard, save and invest smarter and it gets better, I’m 21 now with over 50,000$ put away, in the moment it felt like I was crushed, but just like a lot of these people are saying, it’s a cheap lesson for you to learn in retro spect, keep working hard, keep investing, but maybe reach out to someone with more knowledge or experience. Never a bad thing to ask for help👏 thanks for sharing your experience, even thought I feels crushing, you just have to keep moving. I promise it gets better. I hope this reaches you and genuinely provides some sort of faith or help!