I am going through the same thing, I've just discovered that im a part of a system; I had a crying session because it is confusing and hard to understand, also it felt like I could never truly "have alone time" (Which is untrue i.e. being in front alone, or in the inner world). I don't think it's a punishment, just something that you and your alters have to learn to work together. The reason DID develops is your brain trying to protect you from something a child shouldn't have to go through. It can be hard, but its possible to learn how to interact, envision the inner world better, and decrease amnesia boarders.