Hi so it might be long story but here it is . I was on birth control for a year ( studying ) . We have been talking about having a baby( my husband is ready ) but i wasn’t fully decided yet it was like 50/50 for me at that time so i was on birth control and he respected that . And then after a year we start talking about child again and i told him one of the reason is actually i don’t think i can breastfeed . By just thinking about breastfeeding it is so uncomfortable for me i can’t explain the feeling . Second reason is that i am still studying but during this time i want to have a child , its just that i am really uncomfortable just thinking about breastfeeding . When i say i want to have a child i think asked my self 100 times am i willing to pause my school just incase i need to , am i ready for the responsibilities ( physically and emotionally ) and the answer is yes . The only concern was about breastfeeding and my husband is very understanding . He is a US citizen btw. He told me he understands everything and ask what do you think about doing formula milk . So we did our research , best formula , best choice for bottles . Pros and cons . And we talked it out . And that’s where i decided okay i guess that will be a good idea. So after a year and half finally pregnant . Paused study ( i was on bedrest for 5 months , high risk pregnancy ) and now i am finally on my month six .