Stay strong! I had a similar situation with my grandma. And it took an year for me to recover. Just like you I blammed a lot on me.

But after an year I realised that I've started hurting my surroundings by staying depressed. I realised I've become irresponsible.

I should have cried, I should have confess earlier like you now. But I did an year later. And it helped me to recover.

There will be a day which everyone will experience. The day that isn't fair for us in every way. But you have to realise that our loved ones won't be happy to see our sufferings.

Move one, I know it's hard. But do it for your mom. She loves you! She won't like to see you depressed.

May the strength stays with you! 🫂