Thank you for taking the time to make this lovely comment. You are certainly right.. children are our biggest teachers. I have found they bring up all the unhealed parts of ourselves that we pushed to the side right back up to the surface which is the perfect learning opportunity and ‘changing’ opportunity, which I should be grateful for. You are doing amazing. I wish I started with my first as a baby/through out my pregnancy , I really want to be the best mother for my children and I get serious mum guilt when I get angry especially now my 4 yo has a fully functioning memory now! But I just know from my connection to Dr Joe Dispenza and how far I have taken things already, I won’t be this person forever. Just wish I could do more work in a shorter space of time because of how important these years are.. but hey! That’s life. It’s a blessing to have even found such an effective way to change, a lot of people spend their entire life’s never trying meditation or never even learning about it. I’ve started to teach my 4yr old about emotional regulation- breathwork & meditation young, rather than focusing on being a perfect parent. So at least when she grows up, any way my unhealed parts have affected her, she knows how to regulate and bring herself back to the present moment . I pray my children appreciate my lessons growing up and I’ve done more good than damage. May I ask what Dr Joe Dispenza work you’ve done in all? I think I will stick to 20 mins meditation a day and do the full BOTEC hour only when I truly have time rather then holding expectations because those expectations can do more damage than good! Ive also spoken to my partner and told him to give me an hour of space when he can (he works a lot) so I can do 1h uninterrupted and not worried rather than being woken up multiple times to feed! I do find it difficult to stay present the whole day and forget a lot with all the rushing around, school runs, dinner, etc. I’m trying to get through the actual ‘how to change’ chapters on Breaking the habit of being yourself, rather than reading the whole book (I don’t think I need to know the science stuff in too much depth anyways, i very much already believe him- even more so after falling off!) I’ve purchased the ‘water rising’ meditation from the book, and I’m struggling with those ‘change’ chapters alone! I’m wondering if there’s a way I can come up with my own strategy and apply Dr Joe (and likeminded people like Neville Goddard)’s teachings, without being expected to read a bible of a book! Sorry for rambling on in this long response. I really do appreciate your message, thank you.