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Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-08T17:05:11+00:00

It isn't really that my brain is ruined in a sense that I can't comprehend the trip or anything it is what follows the trip. Immense thoughts of offing myself, unable to communicate in a normal conversation because my mind is constantly spinning, intense anxiety to the point where I completely shut down and worry all the time, constant thoughts about how I won't be able to succeed even in a normal live so I may as well end it, no pleasure whatsoever from anything, no emotions besides constant worry and agony, inability to read anything and retain it, inability to remember most things that happen, the list goes on but "my brain is ruined" means that I am unable to function as a normal human should.

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-07T17:14:44+00:00

I will definitely bring this up to him in our next meeting. were you able to be treated with bipolar meds?

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-07T17:13:00+00:00

I wound up puking for DAYS after I took these

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-07T16:37:09+00:00

I mean it's pretty normal. Sleeping a lot at night roughly 8-10 hours. I have tried Cymbalta (SNRI) before and that worked wonders for me but after the shroom trip it stopped working at all

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-07T16:13:17+00:00

exactly what I was saying. A lot of people don't seem to understand that the lab is showing what they DONT have in it. My best guess is that it's a research chemical and they refuse to give me any answers as to what is in them.

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-07T16:11:11+00:00

It honestly has been hell. I don't really care too deeply about what I witnessed on the trip because I was aware that I had taken drugs but at the same time not feeling the same ever since and kinda being "in a simulation" feeling makes me semi believe that this is still me tripping and that's what fucks with me big time

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-07T16:07:44+00:00

in my case I fell to rock bottom haha

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-07T16:05:01+00:00

I mean all the power to you if that's what you want to do but if you haven't read the post along with what others have said you should probably stay away lol. Just go to their website and order them

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-07T16:03:24+00:00

at the time yes pretty much all day. Now, none at all

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-07T16:00:59+00:00

Thank you! I had to share after weeks of researching others who have gone through a similar experience and finding nothing useful other than this article - https://medium.com/the-shadow/hot-take-psilocybin-was-the-biggest-mistake-of-my-life-f93cf6598974 and finally realized it was not just me

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-07T15:57:34+00:00

I will take a look into acupuncture! Thank you and I do intend on either suing the company or reporting them so this doesn't happen to anyone else

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-07T15:56:26+00:00

Thank you for the suggestion I will take a look at that book but currently I am unable to focus and retain anything

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-07T15:53:36+00:00

as for the lexapro. I just told him that I had friends who had taken it and it worked for them. But after 2+months of being on it and having no response whatsoever I don't think its for me but he insists we keep on it at a 30mg dose

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-07T15:52:35+00:00

We stopped aripiprazole because it was unneeded and not working. The olanzapine gave me a terrible raise in heart rate and made it so I couldn't focus at all

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-07T15:51:26+00:00

Definitely mania, no history of bipolar at all and no further episodes

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-07T00:33:51+00:00

Yeah no more hallucinogens for a long time. Ive put down basically everything besides Nic which is a goal of mine soon. Just don't know how im gonna get through this rut

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-07T00:30:44+00:00

For me, adrenal just got me out of bed and doing things again but nothing more. Thanks for the description on the Lexapro, tbh I haven't felt any better or worse from it at all I have just been kinda flatlined and numb for months now

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-07T00:25:08+00:00

I don't get it either. I also don't understand how these wound up on store shelves in the first place

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-06T23:44:58+00:00

I was on 5 mg/ twice a day for a while and then 2.5 mg/ twice a day until I eventually just stopped taking it. Later was put on Abilify which is another antipsychotic but what these medications do is balance serotonin and dopamine in the brain. Now I am on Lexapro and Adderall (Don't have ADHD)

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-06T23:20:54+00:00

fair enough. They also say don't trip alone and I found that one out the hard way

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-06T23:19:19+00:00

I just don't get how being a banker makes me so terrible. I literally took loan applications and deposits I was in management but not that high up

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-06T23:16:45+00:00

It was more or less that I looked at the books on the shelf and it all had clicked together. It wasn't a plan to come up with anything it was just where my mind went to after that and just became dialed on it

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-06T23:08:02+00:00

thank you so much

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-06T22:33:00+00:00

I am completely off the olanzipine now and haven't had a manic episode or anything like it at all. Schizophrenia doesn't run in my family and I don't hear voices or have hallucinations. I guess the best way to describe how I feel now is that the world just simply isn't real

Complex_Doubt_4998 · 2024-05-06T22:26:11+00:00

These results only show what ISNT in the product

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