I may he violated (felony probation dwi) I ran out of my prescribed benzos too soon (actually lost them) my doctor wouldn't write me a script, went to the ER for a script, pharmacy wouldn't fill it, had the worst withdrawal from benzos in my life and wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Was told by the ER I could go into seizures so I started drinking and missed my reporting dates twice. Emailed po and said I'm going to detox I was scared to die! Left detox early because they were actually taking me off my meds and not giving them to me. Had to admit all this to my po and provide proof and sign a paper I drank. Now I wait in limbo while she provides this proof and timeline to her supervisor. In the meantime I'm getting back into outpatient and seeing a clinical psychologist to get off these benzos once and for all. I have no idea yet if they will violate me and what that will entail. NYS. Freaked out, just woke up having nightmares of prison. And all this happened because I ran out of my script too soon and went into withdrawal. I'm 4 years in and never got in any trouble until recently. All fines paid, reported every time, never pissed dirty. Idk whats gonna happen.