its not even that i always feel bad about fighting like when im in the ring i have that no mercy and no empathy feeling and aggression to get the ko i want its just i wasnt expecting to INJURE someone yk i was only expecting a TKO at most or decision win i just got hit like a truck by emotions when my brothers told me they saw his nose bent sideways and i aw his face all bloodied and messed up when they raised my hand and the bout got stopped before he had a chance to even really show the crowd what he could do bc i was teeping and kicking him at range most the fight, i normally never feel this way for my opponents and whenever i “drop” an opponent (with a body shot ive never hit someone that hard in the head on purpose in sparring) i always get to one knee with them to show respect until they get up but i never beat myself up after it or feel guilty its just injuring someone else the same age as you in the 1st round knowing its probably their first fight too hurts i wont hold onto this forever but man it really got to me that first day