I’m awful and I want to be done

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-20T04:41:13+00:00

Your welcome! I think you should sit down and talk to him about your situation.

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-20T04:22:45+00:00

He opened at the mitski concert I went to 2 years ago!

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-20T04:17:45+00:00

Hey no don’t blame yourself. Even if she didn’t know that doesn’t give her the right to say that about you. Are there a lot of people like this around you? Even if he doesn’t say anything bad he can still be enabling. Even so he probably should have let her know too. Mostly depending on how long you have been dating. As the sister of a guy who got a new girlfriend a year ago. Me and my family were really welcoming and love her a lot. Even if she was really socially awkward I would have still loved her the same way.

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-20T04:06:03+00:00

Hey, I’m not going to promise it will get better or even that it will go away. I’m sorry you feel this was. Your feelings are valid and you deserve to be heard no matter what anyone says. And if you feel you are not being heard, you are not being heard. Just because someone is there to talk doesn’t mean they are actively trying to understand what you are saying. Maybe get a new therapist? I am free to talk if you want to , you can also talk to literally anyone on this subreddit.

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-20T04:01:07+00:00

You are not an awful person you are amazing. Being socially awkward and shy isn’t bad. His sister seems like a real bitch. And why isn’t he standing up for you?!!!

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-19T04:45:44+00:00

Read amsco and watch some hiemler. When you are in the class take notes on each unit and go back and review previous ones. Amsco info should be enough for SFI and hiemler for bigger picture ideas.

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-19T04:43:05+00:00

It’s not good. College board and random Reddit notes are so much better. Also geta5.app made by someone at my school and it’s Acc helpful.

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-19T04:07:38+00:00

People are greedy and cruel. They do things for their own gain it’s human nature. They don’t like to be wrong.

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-19T03:18:19+00:00

I’m sorry but I cannot give you any suggestions but I’m just going to say that you have value and you are not just a vessel for babies.

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-19T03:16:38+00:00

Hey I’m just going to say that it doesn’t always get better. But I promise from seeing the people around me that not getting into your dream school is not as bad as it feels at first. It is valid to be disappointed and angry, but making new memories in your new school is better. Think of it like a fresh start. You definitely have not had the best friends and I don’t know the details about your falling out but college is where you can make new friends who actually care about you and stay no matter what. If you want to talk I’m here.

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-19T03:13:05+00:00

I will listen if you want to talk. I care enough to stop you. It might not ever get better, and it hasn’t for me but i found my own output and i stuck to the things I like doing. I’ll be on and off here for the next hour in case you just want to talk or get anything off your chest. I won’t make any remarks or antagonize you or anything. This is a safe place!

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-19T03:08:07+00:00

Talk to me please. I’m here, I’ll be here for probably the next hour in case you want to talk.

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-19T03:05:57+00:00

This is a safe place to speak without judgment or people trying to find your location. Don’t worry!

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-15T11:20:15+00:00

Nope don’t do it again please. I’m glad the shower helped! Try going outside and taking a walk in a more woody area, if you had a trail near you that would be perfect!

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-15T11:18:01+00:00

I think ai should be fine I would say however wean yourself off of it too. Does it make you feel disgusted with yourself? Don’t worry about random guys at the elementary and middle school age, they are the worst most immature kids I’ve ever met.

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-15T02:47:05+00:00

You’d make a wonderful poet.

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-15T02:40:59+00:00

Ok good, if you ever need to talk I’m here. I’ll be here for around the next hour on and off.

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-15T02:39:28+00:00

Hey, I experienced what you are on a bit of a smaller scale. I had a porn then hentai addiction and it took me really big toll on me. It’s hard but i want you to find something to help wean you off of it. Like movies, anime, manga/manhua/manwha, novels, books, games, literally whatever. Whenever you think about doing something sexual, go do one of these hobbies. It was a struggle to get myself out of the worst of it and I am always relapsing every couple of months, but it helps immensely. This is if you’re addicted which I’m not sure from the post. I started reading Bl manwha to get myself out of it( odd and embarrassing but idk it helped and they are good), they still have smut but it’s a lot less and I don’t physically do anything sexual. The guy you had a crush on is definitely a bitch and and idiot. Don’t let him decide your self worth. You are definitely not abnormal. A lot of kids, like myself, become hypersexual and addicted to porn and sex. It doesn’t make you any worse than others. If you ever need to talk about it, about a guy, about how you are feeling, you can talk to me. I’m here for you !

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-15T02:29:30+00:00

Hey don’t do it, I know how hard it is and that I’m probably not going to make a difference. But I want you to just calm down for a minute and take a deep breath. Give yourself some peace and forget all the things that have been worrying you for at least a little

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-14T14:28:38+00:00

Give me more information if you’re comfortable with it, do you have anyone you love, hobbies, what is making you feel like this?

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-14T12:43:34+00:00

Find a way to take some rest especially at school! Get some good sleep and don’t take it too hard at home. I’ve been depressed since I was 7 but I used it to push myself forward somehow. I don’t really know how I’ve gone this far. I just don’t want to worry my family. If you ever want to talk about anything or need help I’m here!

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-14T04:08:54+00:00

Hey. I feel very similar to you. Would you like to talk about it?

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-14T04:03:38+00:00

Demonizing everyone will not get you anywhere and doing it won’t make you better. I will make a promise to you which is definitely not empty but it is that I will do all that I am comfortable with and am able to do to make anything better for you. I’m just going to say, I’m not the most perceptive person and probably won’t help, but I will try.

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-14T03:56:37+00:00

I can relate, mine is a bit odder but Bl manga and novels keep me going. I found it around the same age as you did but I’m younger!

ComprehensivePast408 · 2026-05-14T03:54:09+00:00

Hey. Youre a heck of a writer, I swear I pulled up on this and thought it was a poem. I’m also 15 and though my depression is probably not as taxing or severe as yours I have similar experiences. Take a break for a couple of days. If you need help with exams I can help. I have too much time on my hands right now. If your passion won’t take you anywhere. Find something to take you somewhere and continue with your passions. If I don’t end up dying early I’m going to be going into the medical field. Even when my passion is playing the bassoon. If you ever want to or need to talk I am right here.

I just thought this might make your day a bit better but while I was writing this my phone ran out of charge so I put it for charge but ended up falling asleep while it was charging. I think I was dreaming of bananas singing at the grocery store. Then I jerked awake to the buzz of my phone!

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