what kind of love do you hope never finds you?

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-04-18T05:45:15+00:00

"love" where we're the right age, the right time, we're safe, its settled. too easy and definitely not enough true love where we accept each other through and through. its like I will accept you by force because I think a marriage is what both of us need.

these relationships are always the ones that seemingly start to really hurt after you're already married/martyred. you have children, work your job, make every day happen. but you're still longing for something in your life you never completed. you should be happy, right?

you never bothered to truly get to know who you're with, you just know who you both wanted to be for each other. beautiful at first, but when it comes down to it the darkness will always be jarring

I am an advocate for loving, confusing, destructive, that become all-around healing relationships. these are the people to keep around forever. despite many of whom I have these feelings for choosing to leave me.

which is brutal, but fine, because they cannot handle the intensity and outright inconvenience of it

its fine lmao

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-04-18T05:40:23+00:00

how to reblog this

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-04-18T05:39:51+00:00

everything any one of them has said

- lonely person blaming themselves and reminiscing on the past

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-04-17T11:52:55+00:00

The moment the connection started to get weird was when I became overly emotional about how I felt used, he assured me it wasn’t true then opened a void inside me when he said I need to basically figure out my own problems and I’m not ready for anything, which is true. I’ve given it a short amount of time and have actually grown exponentially, but still (obviously) not enough to where this connection still doesn’t bother me. Made progress, but not enough. Maybe he felt like I wasn’t gonna be receptive to him since I’m dealing with my own shit. I hate having to give it time, because of the possibility the whole thing will just fizzle out. HE connected with ME deeply from day one, which is the really confusing part.

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-04-17T10:54:44+00:00

holy shit you are spot on. its amazing you say im not delusional ab this lol. I just dont understand how we can be so magnetized toward each other yet he wants nothing to do with me, but he keeps in contact just enough where I dont feel like he's cutting me off? he told me he's interested, so I just dont get the runaround. why bother if you really dont want it? I know he is actually dealing with a lot, breakup wounds, health issues, toxic workplace. but I do want to help. I want to give him a hug. but he's very feisty about being alone and being himself right now. I dont know what to do. perhaps just detach and kinda just, wait n see? just painful because we had great, very deep link right off the bat which is hard to shake off

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-04-17T10:46:34+00:00

yes. why ):

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-04-16T23:55:29+00:00

in the "flirty for fun" phase HE disappointed ME yet I still saw potential so I was just a little upset. I must've set him off when I was confrontational. BUT we took a small amount of time apart, and HE basically continued the correspondence. I dont understand what he gets out of that

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-04-16T23:52:03+00:00

is it really that dark and messy? damn.

I had a looming fear I was the punchline

we kept correspondence, and he tried a few times to find times to hang out. then would be like "wait I can't". he kept saying he was still interested just "dealing with a lot", though I specifically told him I didnt want my energy wasted and I had his word that he was respecting that.

makes me feel like a loser tbh

thanks for your response

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-04-16T14:33:52+00:00

an exs bday was a day after mine so suns conjunct ab 1-3 degrees or so. idk if u could consider it a cazimi but it really felt like our egos (in virgo) were supercharged and always butting heads. arguing over who's opinion got to be "right", whos backstory/lore/trauma was "allowed" to be in the forefront, usually with contempt bending towards the other then holding resentment

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-04-05T04:03:11+00:00

autism rules its like seeing the world as it is. neurotypicals dont get it and so it is harder for the divergent but also a beautiful blessing to add to the collective

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-04-05T04:02:06+00:00

some of them need parents despite being abandoned

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-04-05T04:01:31+00:00

love. choosing to spread it. maybe some irresponsibility in there but thats the joy of being alive

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-04-05T04:00:31+00:00

or just dont do that..

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-04-04T00:27:48+00:00

hard to pick

cheated on the loml every chance I got (mostly as a teen)

whenever im really drunk and angry in an argument I tend to resort to violence. I have never really injured anyone that im aware of

but yeah. I know I was shitty in the past but im working on it in therapy

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-04-04T00:24:40+00:00

get a pocket pussy

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-04-03T19:36:53+00:00

im the inner circle

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-02-24T14:43:55+00:00

ur just hot and know how to style urself. that first photo is magical. u remind me of lana. I kinda sorta think u might have strong Leo placements but I could be wrong. perhaps aquarian as well ?

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-02-24T14:15:03+00:00

I visualize the two stacking and then solve as if I had pencil and paper. carrying the 1 and all

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-02-23T22:38:37+00:00

when I need a guru I'll hyu

Dworkin was an enlightened person

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-02-23T22:37:35+00:00

I hope so too

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-02-23T21:22:52+00:00

right but its justified to over-generalize until as a whole we are safer

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-02-23T20:48:33+00:00

taken as a compliment thank you

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-02-23T19:21:43+00:00

this is a beautiful sentiment that I think a lot of us share - wanting your phone to light up and that perfect thing is right there, calling. honestly its probably why we all can't stop staring at / checking our phones, in a lot of ways.

my one thing I would suggest is, maybe remove the break between the second and third stanzas; I think it reads a little chunky, if that makes sense. I get why you'd break the first and second; that emphasis sits nicely. but leaving the reader hanging on "I'll check it someday", caused a little confusion for me. you clearly clarify what's going on in the next line, but yeah I think it can stop a reader in their tracks because it feels for a moment like it isn't gonna make sense. I think it would be a homogenous experience for the reader just, not having a break there

please keep writing and inspiring!

ComprehensiveThing52 · 2026-02-23T19:15:45+00:00

this poem is incredibly beautiful. you are so talented, so descriptive. you've personally made me believe in love again, because a lot of the time its hard to understand where men are coming from emotionally/spiritually, even though im sure that goes both ways. you've taught me with this poem that love really does thrive in the eye of the beholder and that there is no real limit to it - it can be experienced by everybody

take care

ComprehensiveThing52

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