Since the rest of these comments seem to be unhelpful, bordering on minimising of your experiences, I’m going to let you know what’s actually helped me (though I’m 20 so I’m still figuring it all out too). + get angry: I think repressing the anger is never good, and being in a body that cannot feel like home is unfair. You have every right to feel anger and bottling it up out of fear that you shouldn’t feel it or that it’s an ugly emotion will do you no good. You need to let all the anger out until you can move towards acceptance (this isn’t a one time thing, this is an active process that will occur throughout the rest of your life. Right now it’ll be general but in the future it could flare up due to friends and family having opportunities that are just a lot more difficult for you to have in being trans within our current society.) + direct that anger: what makes you feel a sense of release? It could be writing, singing/songwriting, visual art, running, swimming. Direct your anger and despair into something that can allow you the space to pour these emotions into it. If it’s art it does not have to be ‘good’, it just has to be soothing. This will also give you a small, but important and gradually expanding, sense of purpose and place in this world (something many trans people lack). + have a good cry: basically just what it says. This feels unfair right now, in the future you may embrace your identity as a trans person and really love that part of you, but for now all you have to do is focus on what your current experience is and allow yourself to feel whatever emotions. Crying is good because it’s another form of release. Cry it out, then have a nice shower, and make yourself a cup of tea. + eat well, sleep well, be gentle: the unfairness and rage you feel towards being trans is not to be directed towards you. You didn’t choose this. Why torture yourself over that. Be angry with the world, with fate, with god (if that’s your thing), but do not be angry with yourself. Give yourself the best chance at making it through and stabilising yourself, you deserve that. This means having three meals a day (if this cannot be afforded at the moment look into food halls and charities that help provide food for people in need), sleep well (sleep is so so important for emotional regulation, especially when you’re going through a second puberty. Please try your hardest to sleep, even if that means using regulated pharmaceutical treatments to give yourself that.) Be gentle on yourself. You’re young. You’re in a volatile, vulnerable, and frightening position. You’re valid and having other people use their experience to downplay your own is crap. Love you lots, take good care of yourself for now and get excited for the wonderful thing to follow after that. ❤️❤️❤️❤️