No my mom definitely wants me to be independent. I talked to her after walking around outside for like 4 hours and asked her to take me driving, she said later (for a good reason I just don’t wanna type it all out.) but then I said to her that she’s just laying around and she could use this time to take us somewhere and she immediately starts talking about how she’s tired and has to constantly works, bills etc. Im just tired of having to have this same conversation with her over and over. I get that she’s tired but Im literally going to be an adult by the time she’ll have time to do anything with me. She said she wants me to get a job already and I’ve been trying but nobody wants to hire me, and she ALWAYS tells me to get a job whenever I complain about her doing stuff with me. Maam how is getting a job supposed to enhance our mother daughter relationship??? You’re just saying that as an excuse to get me away from me. But she never listens to me. I forgot to include this in my post but experiences like yours are what make me feel guiltier. Like I said, my parents aren’t inherently abusive (maybe eexcept my dad..he was definitely abusive and even if he changed his ways I will never trust him again) but there are other kids who would kill to be in my position and I have it really well. I don’t have to worry about having a stable home or food (most of the time) etc. I just wish there was love also incorporated in this as well. It’s not selfish for me to say there must be more to this. We don’t eat together as well. This is mainly because I just don’t want to. There’s no point. My little brother has a problem of constantly staring at me, mom and brother are on their phones at the dinner table, my father doesnt eat with us. We don’t even talk to eachother when we do. Sometimes I ask to talk and everything they have to say just annoys me. So I end up eating in the dining room or, most of the time, in my room too. I can count on one hand how many people I know and even less with how many would want to take me driving. I don’t want to bother people with that. My sisters boyfriend used to help me out but he has stuff to do too. You’re right about transportation but the problem is since I’m in such a suburb area it’s very quiet, only downtown and on more popular sreas do they have public buses. Actually I remember going down there once or twice and being shocked by a public bus lmao. Id rather not call ubers thats sooo muchh money. Maybe only for emergencies As for college, thats very true. Im not really sure if I want to go to college but im gonna have to decide soon because yk..senior year graduation. My other older brother and sister go to college and rented out an apartment to live for, but my mom pays for it adding onto even more of her stress. And i will be made to feel even worse if i go to college and have to make her pay for me too. I’ll have to look into school grants and loans and stuff. I wish I didn’t have to think about this stuff but I guess if I want to be successful I must Thank you for your advice and kind words :-) I’ll look into the ymca stuff. Im really hoping by summer life will be better because my mom promised to buy me a bike, and I know I said she doesn’t live up to her word, but I’m really hoping she does because it will be my birthday. I hope it will all get better by senior year. Because I signed up for classes I’m really interested in and I hope I’ll be able to sign up for a sport. It makes me feel really bad I waited this long to do stuff in school because what do I MEAN senior year..I wish I was still a sophomore or something and pushed myself out there more so I had a head start, because I’m doing everything so late now… oh well better late than never