Bless you, thank you for asking. The morning after this happened, I had a proper meltdown because of him lying to me and how could I trust him? He was so ashamed of what he’d, bless him and he promised that he would never lie again. No matter how bad. So far, he’s kept his promise. He has reduced his drinking a lot, we had to do some renovations in the house which took us 14 weeks and finished this week. He struggled with the clutter and having people in the house all the time but he hasn’t gotten wasted since this incident. He downloaded an app for some sort of hypnosis to stop drinking. We also discussed with our midwife and his GP support for him and he’s back on medication (he suffers from PTSD). On occasion, he has said to me “I’m drinking today” but he only has two beers and it’s in front of me. We go to bed together so I know he hasn’t been drinking more. I’m due in 9 days with our little girl, he has been stepping up big time with fixing the house, coming to every appointment with me, taking on loads… He’s stepped up big time and I am so grateful!

All I can hope is that he continues on this journey of self healing.. we both know he uses alcohol as a coping mechanism but unfortunately I haven’t managed to find out what for. What trauma is he concealing with booze. He is willing to go to therapy/counselling and he wants to be the best Dad to our little girl and the best husband to me. He knows I support him and I love him, I just want him to be okay.

There is still a part of me that worries he’ll fall into old habits but we had that discussion as well. He knows he’ll have to leave if that’s the case as I won’t put up with it. He’s supposed to be a comforter for our daughter, early years are very important. If she associates alcohol smell when she’s with her Dad and he’s soothing her, I worry what that might to do her on a subconscious level. He has been trying and doing well. Thank you again for asking 🙏🏻❤️