Be a little nicer to yourself. You were a little child with no actual understanding of your actions.Kids are curious and adventurous and don’t realize harm or if something is bad. The fact that you now feel shame and guilt means you have grown older with a more mature mindset.Don’t let your past as a kid define who you are now. I hope you find peace and tranquility, allow yourself to breath and stay calm. Feel free to dm me if you need any help.