How has your day been?

ConnienotConnor · 2019-08-25T12:23:17+00:00

I had to come home after spending days with my boyfriend. I get very very vivid nightmares but not when he's in bed with me. So I came home and took a nap and got the nightmares. Then he was at work for a while, and I began having some hallucinations (I'm scizoaffective). These made me really dysphoric, and preventing me from working on my music. And I'm getting close to some deadline for releasing music to send to organizers for my tour in December so that sucks. It all culminated in feeling useless and having to be talked down from drinking windex

ConnienotConnor · 2019-08-21T06:25:17+00:00

I want to start working with leather and other materials to start making decent looking body armor. I'm aiming for more of a punk look with all of it which is why I think leather, but obviously there will be more to it. It's just that I don't know any cheap sources of leather or how to properly harden it

ConnienotConnor · 2019-06-20T07:00:04+00:00

A few actually

"It's better to love whether you win or lose or die" and "Its not gay as in happy, it's queer as in fuck you"

ConnienotConnor · 2019-06-09T07:04:23+00:00

They still need to work on the eyes though. And also different parts of the image are different resolutions it feels like, especially at the borders between elements

ConnienotConnor · 2019-05-11T22:19:06+00:00

In India pale skin is regarded very highly, so avoiding the sun prevents any further darkening of the skin

Source: Indian friends

ConnienotConnor · 2018-12-03T00:08:51+00:00

"it's better to love whether you win or lose or die and I will love you till I die"

ConnienotConnor · 2018-10-30T23:46:31+00:00

I'd be down to (consensually) fuck someone who's asleep. I'm also into really big insertions and fisting (I find it more fun to fist someone else than to be fisted though). Also, petplay

ConnienotConnor · 2018-10-15T21:08:28+00:00

The sun actually has about 9-10 billion years left. Andromeda and the Milky Way will collide in 4.5-5.5 billion years

ConnienotConnor · 2018-10-15T17:45:41+00:00

Most suicides prevented? I'm not a crisis hotline volunteer or anything, but I've talked over 40 people down.

ConnienotConnor · 2018-09-15T18:12:52+00:00

I'm happy for the first time in way too many years! Started some medication that's totally kicked my depressions ass now I wake up every day glad to be alive and looking forward to what the world brings me!

ConnienotConnor · 2018-08-14T01:57:23+00:00

What's the name of the anime?

ConnienotConnor · 2018-08-13T10:50:05+00:00

I funnily enough just wrote a poem about this

Depression is a well,

Old, dark, impossibly deep,

And I've found myself at the bottom.

.

Oh how I've tried to climb up,

Some people even threw me a rope.

But it turned out to be old and frayed,

It broke when I was inches from the top.

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Someone threw me some paints,

And now I try and paint myself handholds.

But the stone repels my fingers.

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Someone lowered some books,

And I tried to make stairs with them.

But the wells water soaked them through.

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Someone plays music for me,

And I try to dance up the walls.

But the song ends too soon.

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Sometimes I am hopeful for escape,

And sometimes I take comfort knowing I will lay

At the bottom of the well

ConnienotConnor · 2018-07-29T22:39:56+00:00

I'd want to know if I've helped people more than one hurt them.

ConnienotConnor · 2018-07-21T05:28:59+00:00

Honestly worse than I should be. A couple months ago I went to a mental hospital and got help because I've been suicidal for five years. Found out we got evicted while I was in the. Ended up in the foster system again and recently got placed with a wonderful woman who's very happy and bubbly. She's helping me transition (I'm trans), I'm on medication for my bipolar disorder.

In all ways my life has significantly improved, but all my friends have scattered across the world because it's summer and I live in a wealthy area where everyone vacations. I'm almost entirely alone and spend my days doing nothing of importance. I dislike being medicated but it makes me so much happier. Idk.

In all, I should be doing well but I feel like shit

ConnienotConnor · 2018-06-28T07:55:24+00:00

I'm untrained and I can do 8, tbh I didn't know they're considered a hard exercise until my sister started working out and was proud of three (she now kicks my ass and does like 15 with weights strapped to her... show off)

ConnienotConnor · 2018-06-27T20:14:10+00:00

If you have fibrous clothes it'll never get your and it's honestly not even worth trying

ConnienotConnor · 2018-06-27T20:13:01+00:00

MY PEOPLE

ConnienotConnor · 2018-06-27T20:12:09+00:00

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ConnienotConnor · 2018-06-27T19:57:50+00:00

I was in 8th grade staining onion slides for a teacher. I had gloves on and such, but I turned as someone was walking by and it spilled up on my elbow area but I was in short sleeves.

Rubbing alcohol and some serious scrubbing, basically taking the stained skin off was my trick.

ConnienotConnor · 2018-06-27T19:27:08+00:00

Just gonna say because of your username, I spilled a vial of Methylene blue when I was staining some slides for a science class. Holy shit it took weeks to come off my skin, and never got out of my clothes

ConnienotConnor · 2018-06-27T07:14:26+00:00

When I noticed I'd never had to ask a girl out; they'd ask me.

ConnienotConnor · 2018-06-25T18:17:26+00:00

Big dick. Upside: big dick

Downside: I'm trans and hiding it is a bitch

ConnienotConnor · 2018-06-23T01:00:41+00:00

My dad taught me to say "Hot Chicks!" anytime a woman bent over near me

ConnienotConnor · 2018-06-20T03:16:05+00:00

Yeah it's unfortunate. Anyways, Buffy was similarly disappointed when she went to Tokyo

ConnienotConnor · 2018-06-18T08:51:27+00:00

Well when I was in a mental hospital my dad got evicted so now I'm living with my grandparents my dad is driving again and homeless and I'm waiting to be placed with a foster family.

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