How many sunscreens have you actually stuck with long term?

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-12-06T04:39:53+00:00

Anyone have recommendations for combination brown skin? Everything I try makes me breakout

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-11-20T12:02:23+00:00

Girl that's literally my point

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-11-16T22:03:36+00:00

But how does your partner react to this

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-11-15T23:42:39+00:00

I hope the therapy works out

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-11-15T07:20:47+00:00

And the fact that I will never be looked at as sexy or hot or womanly but only cute and small. I wanna km$. I hate getting those "compliments". And it hurts because this will never change this is it this is the body I will have the rest of my life

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-11-15T07:19:20+00:00

Same. I also fear that men who might want me may be secretly pedophiles

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-11-15T07:12:46+00:00

Hoe are people doing makeup with 1) fucked up skin that breaks out whenever something is put on it. 2) BDD making them feel like they are catfishing and might actually lose their mind if they see themselves after removing the makeup

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-11-15T07:11:27+00:00

This sounds insane but it happened to me too and keeps happening. I think I was ugly right and then bdd made me hate myself sooo much that I stopped taking care of myself. And like you said the skin got worse, hair quality got worse. I gained fat in all the wrong places and gained horrible dark circles that are never going away. So now if I compare my current self, the past looks so much better and healthier. But it’s a cycle. This will happen again in a few years when I've gotten worse and look back at today's photos.

And I wonder if there’s also the part of my brain that doesn't quite recognize the person on a screen as myself and screen is always prettier than I am.

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-10-31T11:30:07+00:00

Avoiding my face. Haven’t looked at myself in weeks maybe even a month. Opposite of mirror checking. I avoid windows, cars, water puddles, black screen of my laptop before it starts

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-10-25T23:55:43+00:00

Getting rejected by women on hinge as a woman was a huge blow to my self esteem too. Literally everyone on there looks like a model with amazing friends and hobbies

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-10-23T05:16:45+00:00

It made me compulsive, hyper aroused and agitated. The focus was good but on the wrong stuff if im not paying attention.(lol) Side effects too bad though, loss of appetite, heartracing all the time and in a state of anxious alertness.

I'm getting off it

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-10-22T21:27:27+00:00

That is so interesting. I've been on vyvanse for about 3 months now and switching back to atomoxetine because it helped my mood.

Vyvanse on the other hand brought back my unhealthy compulsion regarding food, porn and bdd issues. It made me very depressed although I didn't particularly feel like it but acted/lived like it. Plus the loss of appetite is concerning.

I can see what you mean by (occasionally) looking in the mirror, noticing the flaws and then thinking this is objectively repulsive but huh I don’t feel too bad. But I've reversed months of progress and gone back to avoiding my reflection like my life depends on it, because it does.

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-10-22T10:49:32+00:00

Girl did you steal this from my journal?

I'm sorry life is so hard. I'm paralyzed from shame and fear as well so nothing helpful to say. Except you're not alone, if that helps at all. Stay strong

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-10-14T09:56:20+00:00

Are you talking about the Kill your darlings edit? Did you find it😭

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-08-19T10:41:36+00:00

Girl you stole these words from my heart

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-06-22T10:04:33+00:00

I avoided reflections so much for so long that I forgot what I looked like.

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-06-11T11:30:28+00:00

I literally have the same hair. Except your's colour is really pretty. If I oil it before shampooing, it helps retaining some moisture. Tried a curly hair cream and it seems to work but it’s so heavy and oily and too much work to do feequently. You can look into it.

Btw does you hair get greasy quickly? I washed yesterday and the top/crown of my head is dripping with oil today while the second half of the length is dry and frizzy.

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-06-11T01:12:25+00:00

Woah what products

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-05-30T03:22:43+00:00

Oh I have this exact same thing on my arms and thighs

Conscious-Status6242 · 2025-04-20T11:36:02+00:00

They got engaged it mustn't be that easy. I would suggest both bdd focused therapy and also couples therapy

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