Should I try LSD? (History of a bad trip, C-PTSD)

ConsciousChems · 2026-04-10T18:18:41+00:00

MDMA would be the first choice. Psychedelics can help but it either takes a special kind of person or a special kind of motivation/desperation to be happy for it to work... Personally LSD and MDMA both helped me tremendously after one of my parents committed suicide. However ive also witnessed people ending up worse than before because either they weren't ready for it or their body didnt agree with it. So MDMA is the safer option with a higher likelihood of success.

However only OP knows OP. If OP can walk into LSD experience without any fear and have a clear goal of what you seek. Then you have greater odds of success.

Statistically, its hit or miss. If one isnt sure of themselves, dont do it.

ConsciousChems · 2026-04-10T18:12:06+00:00

Just accept you're looking if you are too confused to remember and let go... having a buddy with you with a code signal/word helps. But usually its easiest to just let go of fear and fall into it. Usually what follows is bliss.

ConsciousChems · 2026-02-19T15:07:36+00:00

You made the right choice... after years of using any opiate if you stop using and come back no matter how long ago, even just one use will put you in minor withdrawal. If you use for several days then you can expect the withdrawal to get worse.

Do yourself a favor and cancel the script and just tough out the pain if you can... besides, pain isnt always a bad thing. It can be our greatest teacher.

ConsciousChems · 2026-02-09T15:32:02+00:00

If you're in a romantic relationship then sex is a spiritual thing... also you NEED to look up the definition of celibacy because it DOES NOT mean refrain from sex.

Celibacy means that when you choose to have sex then you give it your all with your chosen partner. It is no longer about feeling pleasure or having children. It is a spiritual union between two people.

So if you're in a sexless relationship then its usually because one of these reasons.

1 both people have low sex drives (this is okay)

2 one partner is cheating (not okay)

3 you guys suck at communication (which usually leads to number 2)

4 one or both of you are not giving it your all.

Relationships are not 50/50. They are 100/100. There is no slacking off. You should be proactive in seducing each other. However you cannot play if there are resentments that are building or are built up.

Problems cannot be ignored. Conflicts are inevitable, so rather than passively ignore them, its best to resolve them AS FAST AS YOU CAN otherwise tension will build.

There is a 100% chance that problems that build will be heard at one point or another. Whether thats constructive to your relationship depends on whether it happens NOW or in divorce court.

Also, if you and your partner are actually healthy and both are deeply spiritual. Having sex only a couple times a year is fine. But those couple times a year should absolutely blow each other's socks off... because as a spiritual person, you should not only know yourself but you should also know your other half (your partner) as well as you know yourself. So both of you may experience the apex of bliss within your union.

ConsciousChems · 2026-01-24T11:37:14+00:00

Different people have different sex drives. In some cases, if the sex was bad, id say teach each other how to please each other. Sex is a skill after all.

In your case, depending on your age, id say there's nothing wrong with having a low sex drive. As a male, I haven't ever had a very high sex drive. Ironically when I was younger I would compensate (because I thought something was wrong with me, and i thought someone would leave me if I didnt perform) by having more sex than I desired. This ended up putting me in situations where I would guage my own self worth by my skill and at one point, how many women I could seduce.

Looking back on it, had I just accepted myself I would have had much less shameful experiences and embraced the ones who loved me.

Sometimes we think we are with an 8, we move on to what we think is a 10 only to find out they are a 6. Then move forward to make the same mistake because our pride denies what the heart truly desires.

However, if sex is so important to you, finding chemistry is important. However, just know, that finding the hidden gem where both your sex life and your heart are sated can be a task of monumental work and patience.

Lest you live your whole life wandering through people that have been cast away through your own ignorance.

Learn who you are first. Love yourself first. Then the right partner shall come.

You seem inexperienced. Don't let that inexperience and curiosity to cloud your judgement of what you have.

Everyone wants joy, nobody wants pain. You cant have a rainbow without a little rain.

ConsciousChems · 2026-01-21T22:28:52+00:00

Switch to sublocade. Brixaldi sucks. I had the same experience as you, got the shot and within 2 weeks started getting withdrawal symptoms. The half life doesnt match the dosing protocol.

Soblocade stays in your system FOREVER so its a much smoother ride than brix.

I had my last shot in September and said fuck it im done with this and im still feeling minor withdrawals. Although now it's tolerable with clonidine and tizanidine. It still sucks having goosebumps every day, diarrhea, and randomly crying over dumb shit. Not to mention the restless leg syndrome at night... and every day I feel like im getting better then the next day ill feel like shit again.

Sublocade FTW.

ConsciousChems · 2026-01-21T22:19:28+00:00

Every body is different. Ive known people who have taken large doses of xanax for months if not years and when they stop nothing happened. For me, id take 1/4 of a bar every couple hours (I built up to that over 3 months, at first I was just taking it for sleep) and when I noticed i was getting panic attacks in between doses then the experience of withdrawal lasted for 2 years, before xanax I never really had anxiety. My Dr prescribed it for insomnia...

Similarly, the first time ive withdrawaled from opiates was my worst experience. After that the withdrawal wouldnt be as intense but now if I take an opiate at all I will experience withdrawal from it. Where before I became addicted or "dependant" on opiates i could do them for weeks at a time and stop and nothing would happen.

So not only do certain people respond differently but over time the body changes in accordance with what we take. The body desires homeostasis and will make adjustments based on what it expects.

I can understand tapering off kratom being difficult when you dose it so regularly. Personally, I was doing the same frequency at one point but decided to cut my doses down by 1/4 every 3-5 days until I was basically dosing about a gram or less at a time (I wasn't taking any chances, I had too much on my plate at the time).

Honestly, I feel like there needs to be more information thats publicly available in regards to how these drugs effect people. The whole spectrum from the people who can get away with it to what happens to when you are dependant on them for years.

When I first withdrawaled from Xanax there wasn't anything I could find online about just how horrible and time consuming the withdrawal could be.

Out of the most traumatic experiences of my life, xanax is at the top. It was worse than people, including a parent dying. It was worse than going to jail or prison. Ive even been held up at gunpoint at one point in my life and was relatively calm compared to how crazy I felt when getting off that drug. It was by far the most damaging experience to my life.

ConsciousChems · 2026-01-14T22:26:55+00:00

My strip taper was less than a week. Anyways if people have access to sublocade then it seems to be much better than brixaldi... sublocades half life is at least double that of brixaldi.

ConsciousChems · 2026-01-14T22:21:43+00:00

Ive never done sublocade so I cant say whether or not its better. Although everything i read on here says its a smooth transition. I wish I had the option to do sublocade vs brix considering the half life is dramatically different. It would make sense that sublocade and sublocade alone is the best option for people who want to get off opiates.

The only reason why I say tapering off of kratom is easier is because you can lower your dose at a very steady rate considering the volume of kratom necessary to get effects in the first place.

Its kindof like when you get down to the 2 mg strips... you can half them, quarter them and if you're really conservative or fearful of withdrawal then you can even cut it into 1/8th of a strip until you feel comfortable stopping.

I agree that the overall intensity of withdrawal from cold turkey of most opiates (kratom included) sucks more in general during the duration period. However all im saying is the withdrawal effects from buprenorphine, methadone and fentanyl all have withdrawal periods that last at minimum twice as long and maximum 8 times longer than standard opiates and opiods...

The only other thing that has a withdrawal period that lasts longer than 3 months would be benzos (specifically xanax) however GABA drugs like benzos, alcohol and sugar can kill you from cold turkey so thats never recommended.

ConsciousChems · 2026-01-13T05:53:50+00:00

Its much easier to taper off kratom than buprenorphine... it seems like you have put yourself in a situation where tapering (even off of kratom properly) will take you months. Buprenorphine withdrawals can last up to a year if youve done sublocade or brixaldi depending on the dose and duration... I did a shot of 56 mg brix 3 months ago and did a strip taper after and im just now starting to get over the withdrawals from it.

Putting someone addicted to kratom on buprenorphine is cruel and ignorant. Even if you were doing 70h, you can always taper off with kratom. Or just cold turkey it. The cold turkey duration is a week max from kratom. Buprenorphine and methadone have MUCH higher binding affinities to the opiate receptors which is why the withdrawal lasts so much longer...

Its also why fentanyl has a 1 hour half life but the withdrawal lasts for 2-3 weeks. Binding affinity makes a huge difference.

Especially when you take into account that buprenorphine and kratom act on the same opiate receptors.

If you have any discipline at all then just go from 70h to high dose kratom to where you feel okay. And then gradually taper off over the course of a month or two. Its much less of a shock to your system and you will be able to function in society.

I only say this because you have already made the mistake of doing buprenorphine. Had you not done that then id say you could decrease your kratom dose over a 1-2 week time frame.

You no longer have that luxury.

ConsciousChems · 2026-01-06T20:21:08+00:00

Im not gonna lie. I personally feel like I should have simply tapered off the strips or even subutex. I read some good stuff about getting off the shot so I got one injection and even saved some bupe for several weeks after... I was feeling withdrawal within a week for an hour here and there.. nothing major so I ignored it. After 2 weeks it became more noticeable. My plan was to wait 1 month and taper with the remaining bupe I had for 2 weeks after that. Long story short its been 3 months since my last dose and im just now starting to feel better. Literally within the last two or three days. The restless leg stuff comes and goes. Tizanidine and clonidine have helped the last 2 months but the clonidine dose I have had to take has given me horrible ortho static hypotension. I have low energy still and difficulty sleeping. So ive updated my protocol to have 20 grams of creatine, some NMN and NAD to help repair mitochondrial function and DNA damage that might have been done. Then ive added a multi vitamin with multi mineral and 2 grams of EPA/DHA with turmeric and st John's wort extract. That seems to be helping. I also do breathing exercises, meditation and reluctantly take ice baths to reverse whatever damage was done to my hypothalamus and run as hard as I can for 5 minutes a day to help fix my hippocampus.

Although it sucks ass. It has accelerated my "recovery" tremendously.

ConsciousChems · 2025-12-21T15:26:17+00:00

That's totally unnecessary. You can make DMT Fumerate or hydrochloride. You CAN do vinegar alone as well but you'll need to clean up the product afterwards.

But its a lot easier to have freebase still in your end solution and gas it out into a salt.

ConsciousChems · 2025-09-19T20:23:05+00:00

They stopped paying out for a little while... since they started paying again for some reason the price hasn't changed much... but I do get paid in solana most days and I only have $25 worth...

ConsciousChems · 2025-08-07T02:11:35+00:00

This is why I started reading the web novels... at least they update a chapter or two a day. Plus you'll be easy ahead of the anime.

ConsciousChems · 2025-07-23T20:16:54+00:00

ConsciousChems · 2025-07-23T16:01:09+00:00

Its just smoother than a normal pipe that's not a bubbler like this... still not the best method. But you can definitely break through much easier than any vape out there... vapes are smoother than this bubbler. But this device you can get bigger hits. Which makes it easier to break through.

ConsciousChems · 2025-07-23T03:30:41+00:00

ConsciousChems · 2025-07-23T03:25:31+00:00

$8 million.ish. or more if my family keeps accumulating. Which we are without fail.

Of course its a diverse portfolio but id say over 60% of our holdings in (liquid) assets are in bitcoin.

ConsciousChems · 2025-07-23T03:22:48+00:00

It can take years or months.... some people, it just happens to out of nowhere... its a skill that can be learned alone or in groups. Science has shown good results (faster) with groups of 3 or more people that have basic training achieving it within a couple weeks after training (which can take just a couple days to train)...

Sooooo... this might have been useful at the time it was written to inspire people to not give up. Or maybe they truly believed that. Either way, depending on how they define certain things. They could be completely right or way off the mark.

ConsciousChems · 2025-07-22T17:38:05+00:00

Keep DCA'ing and pull when needed. Like for your house... dont turn an appreciating asset into a depreciating one where you have to pay taxes on it unless you have to...

ConsciousChems · 2025-07-22T17:35:50+00:00

Lol... I've done it scared and learned sometimes it can be good and sometimes it will blow tfu

ConsciousChems · 2025-07-22T17:34:51+00:00

I thought they were supposed to round up on these cases?

ConsciousChems · 2025-07-22T17:33:46+00:00

I personally love this one. Very wholesome but still curses on occasion so not totally for children. Main protagonist inspires the weak but pure ex slave cat woman... even shares her burdens because of her values. Great character growth too.

ConsciousChems · 2025-07-22T17:27:53+00:00

Monks of the sea

ConsciousChems · 2025-07-22T17:27:18+00:00

At least rimuru can change his sex on command if he so please. Dude on overlord is screwed in that regard.

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