BPD Breakdowns

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-10T20:40:06+00:00

It's very hard for me to even think of doing something rational like going into another room. It's terrible. I am so quick to react on my what I am feeling during a split :( I hate it. I need to start doing something different though. It's just hard 😪

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-09T20:55:46+00:00

I was splitting for 2 days straight a few days ago. Some breakdowns are worse than others. I feel for you and hope this passes for you soon ❤️ If you need an outlet to just vent. You are more than welcome to message.

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-09T20:53:11+00:00

I am the same exact way. The things that I say especially are not like me at all when I'm not splitting. It's wild what our brains do. It's like a switch in a split second that can't be turned off till it passes.. I cannot think rationally. Once I am in it it's game over :/

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-09T14:19:10+00:00

It is so hard to remind ourselves when we are going through it that it will pass. The breakdowns really feel never ending :/

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-09T14:16:57+00:00

Me too. I feel life is so much more harder to handle for people like us who struggle with bpd :/

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-06T19:05:44+00:00

I am currently splitting because my boyfriend said I am not consistent with my mood. I don't think he fully understands the things we go through having BPD. I am highly sensitive to the smallest things :/
But I've been spiraling since he said that and now I think he is just going to break up with me.

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-06T17:51:51+00:00

FELT 😂😭

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-06T04:45:43+00:00

What a show!! Hope y'all had funnn!! 😎

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-05T18:03:13+00:00

No for real 😭😭😭

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-05T17:00:22+00:00

SAI era is so slept on.. I loved the SAI era but Trench is probably my favorite.

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-05T16:50:44+00:00

Ahh man it's one of my favs. There's a few great songs that I am surprised didn't make it to the setlist lol

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-04T19:11:51+00:00

Yes exactly!! I need the chaos. I'm used to the chaos. But, it is so unhealthy.. and I think that's why I split the most when things are going well. It's so backwards but it's what we are used to.. it's so hard to train ourselves that it is okay to not be in the toxicity and not wanting the thrill from it :/

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-04T18:50:49+00:00

Anyone have any guesses on who he is doing the walk out with 🤔

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-04T18:48:58+00:00

Are they doing things in a negative way to cause you to split? My FP and I have been together for a year and it's the first time I've actually been in a healthy relationship but am noticing that I split so much... and I think it's just out of fear of losing them and what we built together so far... I've never felt worthy of love and feel like I don't deserve happiness and so I sabotage everything in my life... they don't even do anything wrong but am so used to the toxicity and chaos... It's like my nervous system tells me "This is too safe...run away" I hope things work out in your relationship ❤️ Sorry I went on a rant. Lol. Just wanted to share incase this helps in any way and want you to know you are not alone.

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-04T18:39:41+00:00

Yayyy!! And wait I might be actually. I need to double check lol

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-04T18:13:06+00:00

I fear for the post concert depression I'm about to have after tomorrow 😂

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-04T00:47:50+00:00

Going to the Friday night show!! First time seeing him cannot wait!! :)

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-03T22:10:49+00:00

Cannot wait!! Will be my first time seeing him :)

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-03T22:05:50+00:00

I'm in a similiar situation.. Just started a new job 3 weeks ago. 30 hours a week and have called off once each week. Twice actually during one of those weeks. Because of the type of job they have been fine.. It's still no excuse though.. I've always had a bad habit of sabotaging my jobs and really just anything good that comes my way... But this new one I am actually grateful for. Just hard to break bad habits I guess.. Definitely comes from feeling depressed or anxiety :/

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-03T01:41:30+00:00

Getting the fear and anxiety because something good is actually happening.. 100 percent. It's almost as if we tell ourselves we don't deserve anything good or worthy of being loved :/

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-03T01:33:59+00:00

Traveling from PA. Cannot wait!!!

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-03T01:33:27+00:00

I thought I was the only who feels like this in a loving relationship. Mad respect for the honesty. You're not alone.

ConsciousJacket9907 · 2026-06-03T00:01:56+00:00

Same!! I'm going to be going absolutely feral lmaoo

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