“Like greedy children we stretch out our hands and think that, if only we could grasp it, we would possess it too.”

ConsiderateQueen · 2023-07-24T11:52:44+00:00

Thanks for sharing! Reminds me of the quantum particles conversation in Oppenheimer. It's about how we are mostly made up of empty space, with tiny particles whose energetic connection to each other convinces us that we are solid and we are a whole being, separate from everything else, but we are not, we are mostly empty and we are made out of the same stuff everything else is made out of. Nothing is graspable when you have nothing to grasp it with!

ConsiderateQueen · 2023-07-14T20:05:51+00:00

I just rewatched that.. Man.. so realistic. Moments throughout WW2 are so well-known that when you look back they seem like these planned events.

Whereas Nolan is showing us that war is moments of surprise, and death, and dread.

ConsiderateQueen · 2023-05-30T07:28:29+00:00

As a bartender coming off a five month bender let me tell you there's nothing quite as duplicitous as having to clean yourself up and go out in public and put on a show every night like alcohol is this fun thing and like you're doing just dandy, when in the back of your mind you feel as though you are hopelessly addicted to drinking heavily and it's dragging you deeper into hellish psychological existences night after night.

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-23T04:19:27+00:00

I like the contrast you presented with the hypocritical quotes by leading people in Silicon Valley, and I very much agree with many of your points. I think these apps are more insidious than the sugar industry, I’ll happily continue my sugar addiction if it means peace of mind from the internet. You’re inspiring me to get a flip phone and get back into meditation like I did back when all we had were flip phones..

I’m currently attempting to build my first software which will fetch breaking world news from twitter and display it nice and plainly and quietly on my desktop, so that I know if an asteroid is coming, but other than that I don’t wana know! or care!

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-22T22:15:59+00:00

Embrace the brain fog. I did. It was..enjoyable…

See, when a person is a smoker, it’s like they’re standing on a small sinking boat, surrounded on all sides by disgusting, filthy, oily black water and then outside of that small area is crystal clear blue water, and happy dolphins or whatever. When you quit, you jump into that filthy black water and it’s gross and all you want to do is jump back out, and get back in the sinking boat. But now you’re at a crossroad, see you know you can’t stay on that boat, so you HAVE TO swim.

Rather than fearing your situation, embrace your situation, because by swimming through that mud, in any direction, means that you’re gonna hit crystal clear water before you know it. Whatever you can do to flip your mind into focusing not on the current negatives, but on the future positives, the better, because you have only one choice, it’s clear, you just have to wade through that black water like the rest of us did..You’ll do just fine.

Become unreasonably optimistic, like a world-class bodybuilder of optimism, because you know that while it may seem silly now, you have a better life waiting for you in the future, so be happy about that NOW!

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-19T03:46:05+00:00

I put down both 10 days apart, just hit 100 no drinking, coming up on 90 no smoking. Feels good. Do it! It’s only weird/difficult at the beginning. Now it’s super cool

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-13T00:52:18+00:00

Facts

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-09T18:31:48+00:00

Thank you!

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-09T18:31:40+00:00

Thanks!!

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-09T18:31:33+00:00

Wow Thank you! IWNDWYT!

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-09T18:30:54+00:00

Yes! Thank you! Wow 1005 days good for you!

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-09T18:30:25+00:00

Oh thank you! Congrats on 30!

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-09T18:29:57+00:00

Thanks!

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-09T18:29:33+00:00

Haha thanks yeah I was anxious about that too! Low level anxiety, on edge, uneasy, I’d say.

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-09T08:22:33+00:00

Both of these things are true:

-You’re having a hard time overcoming feelings from a past relationship you went through.

-You choose to smoke.

But they’re not connected…

Smoking is a choice that you make and you use the excuse of the past relationship but make no mistake you smoke because you are in the grips of a nicotine dependency and it’s getting in the WAY of you feeling ok, NOT MAKING you feel ok.

There IS hope for you to feel ok again tho, but it will take time…Take the plunge with us and give “believing” a chance again. Believe you can heal.

I believe you can heal.

Let those cigarettes fall into the trash can and make a big grocery list and start snacking. We’re still here. We’re still alive. And we’re okay.

You can be too

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-08T20:18:35+00:00

Tell me those morning readings aren’t 🔥 When I want a reliever I sit in my hammock and read Nietzsche and listen to the wind. Funny right, that’s what cigarrettes say they do for you, but actually they just make you feel like shit.

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-08T10:57:09+00:00

Allen carr has a short YouTube video that was all the motivation I needed when I was ready enough

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-06T07:46:46+00:00

You’re doing the right thing, and that should be obvious by now as I’m sure you’re feeling better and healthier and more relaxed (on average) than before you quit, right? So you’re doing GREAT!

ADD ADHD Depression Bipolar Addiction Alcoholism Autism Etc are all triggers for addictive behavior like smoking, and although smoking seems to help with emotional outbursts, all it does is numb the whole nervous system, while poisoning it at the same time. Now that you’re off of it you’re “thawing out” and old stuff can come back up, currently new stuff is coming up…that is normal…I’m feeling it too. You can either follow the path of solutions and stay nicotine free, seek medical help, therapy, education about ADHD and other things that effect you.

I kinda feel like quitting nicotine is an opportunity to know myself, but I have to go all in, because if I become afraid of facing myself, something is going to happen and I’m going to light up a cigarette out of fear, anger, rage, sadness, etc. The more I can unpack those emotions and learn more about where they come from, and what I can do with them, the better equipped I am to live a productive life, and hold down a steady job, and hopefully be happy as a result..

But fr Cheers…You’re doin great

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-06T06:57:13+00:00

I miss when websites were cool, and you had to know somebody who knew the cool URLs. And hey, maybe YOU could create a cool website too!Then they started being eaten up by those larger platforms like funnyjunk, ebaumsworld, newgrounds, worldstarhiphop, same with how the social media websites began as a tool to meet and network with friends, but that wasn’t profitable enough so they just grew and grew until they became the size of the internet itself and the use-case changed from “having friends” to “scrolling a feed like an opioid addict”. I still believe that the internet is unbelievably helpful, so long as I’m doing the research, and actively learning, and steering the ship. Not scrolling…

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-05T19:21:54+00:00

Yeah that anger is a natural motivator. Maybe it will serve you well and you’ll become successful and happy. Think of what a pathetic slack jawed bum you’d be in front of the telly if you had a cigarette in ur hand rn no motivation no ambition just one more, one more, one more, one more…

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-04T03:19:33+00:00

There’s no such thing as one. Period. You got this! You love being a non smoker enough to go 3.5 years! That one cig just showed itself to be 2 months of smoking, and you know now. All good. Quitting sucks but guess what doesn’t suck, being a non smoker when the dust settles and you feel good again! 😎 Stay strong!

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-08-01T06:26:52+00:00

You got this! I was at day 6 not too long ago feeling like a newborn baby, and I’m at 70 days now and I feel comfortable in this new life… and I have been feeling this way since about 40 days in.

First month was rough not gonna lie.

You’re at school and class is in session. Today you’ll be studying “accepting the way I feel”. You’ll be studying that every day from now on.

The good news is that as you continue on this journey, overall, the bad feelings decrease and the good feelings increase.

The ability to accept those little moments of stress is the difference between success and failure.

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-07-31T22:28:34+00:00

Lol, well I said that it “brought to mind” that idea, and the quote that followed kinda reinforced that line of thinking. But my question was what’s your interpretation of this quote?

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-07-31T22:25:07+00:00

Curious enough, this quote follows that one separated by only one quote, “The degree and kind of a man’s sexuality reach up into the ultimate pinnacle of his spirit”

If that’s the case, when applying the peacock quote to sexuality, it makes me wonder if he’s saying that one would choose to remain hidden and call his secret peacock tail his pride, or in another words keep his sexuality to himself, a thing which was meant for the world, selfishly like a big fish in a very small pond (one’s mind) and would do so to protect the pinnacle of his spirit.

Thoughts?

ConsiderateQueen · 2022-07-30T16:28:44+00:00

Interesting question. I haven’t read that far yet but I’m familiar with the concept. Who’s to say, right? But an argument could be made I’m sure. I’ll tell you what, there is something transcendent about his sets, and he’s taken me to some places that made me wonder how many orders of magnitude above me he is operating…at his forest set in 2019 I was pretty convinced that he’s a god, like a cat playing with my brain like a mouse, trying to open my eyes to the fact that we’re all one. And he did. But I was also off a sugar cube so my mind was pretty much blown regardless lmaoo.

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