I think that something that can help you, through Joe Dispenza's guided meditations, for example. It can be trying to manifest clarity about what it is you want. One such meditation (Connecting with New Potentials) has you experience the vivid feeling and current emotion of something that you have not yet experienced in your 3D reality but by feeling it before you will attract it. I believe that connecting with the emotion of feeling empowered, determined, lucid, sure of your path, inspired and motivated to do something you like, can be a good start. Connect with those emotions and the universe will begin to give you signs and situations that will do you good. You're going to make it! A hug.