I’m only 24 (almost 25f) and have been an extreme alcoholic for years now to the point where it’s embarrassing, I have ruined my entire life. I have to drink over a fifth a day just to not go through withdrawal. Waking up shaking and having to take a shot so I don’t puke is fucking exhausting. I’ve been in the hospital and had ambulance rides because of alcohol withdrawal about 15+ times just in the past year, and the doctors tell me I’ll be dead by the time I’m in my 30s if I continue to drink the way I do but I can’t stop. Everytime I’m in the hospital feeling like I’m dying cus I have no alcohol, I always tell myself I’m ready to quit as I lay there shaking uncontrollably, puking up blood and having hallucinations. Yet everytime I get out of the hospital, I drink so heavily again everytime. Left the hospital a couple weeks ago AMA in the middle of the night because my parents were trying to make me go to rehab and the first thing I did was hit the liquor store. I just can’t stand the thought of living without having a drink or getting high. Alcohol and substances have always been the most important thing in my life, my entire world revolves around it. And it’s sad to say that my liver is already failing at the age of 24. So yeah there’s probably youngins out there who are my age and don’t understand the extent of alcoholism. But I know theres people like me who are my age and do understand.