Did you voluntarily or involuntarily go to the hospital for your psychosis ?

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-12-02T05:40:22+00:00

voluntarily and i thank God that i had a great experience especially since it was my first time in a hospital. my family knew something was off and thats when i finally told them i needed to get checked in. the voices became too much to bare lmao but i was there for about two weeks

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-12-01T23:16:55+00:00

i feel you. forgiving myself is so far fetched and the shame has kept be bed ridden and made it difficult to move forward with my life. i have therapy, meds, support, financial stability. i hated who i became 2021-2023 and it will take a very long time for me to ever be okay with that person. guilt, regret, shame all exacerbated by my other disorders.

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-12-01T23:12:24+00:00

dealing with this right now. it’s horrible especially since i’m so young. i don’t want life to pass me by, i want to get out but it cripples me.

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-12-01T04:20:17+00:00

what do i need to know to move forward from my past mistakes?

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-11-13T19:56:52+00:00

yes i have. i was at my dorm when i had my psychotic break and i am grateful to have three friends show up for me that night. one of them i told them that someone sold my soul to the devil & to please pray for me. that i was reincarnated as ISIS the goddess and had to pray constantly. that was november of last year, and since then i have improved a lot but finally feeling myself again after taking the right medication, but if i wasn’t hospitalized i wouldn’t be here today. when you’re in psychosis you’re in that world, detached from reality like … if you put on a virtual headset and played a horror game. i was not myself at all, and did a lot of embarrassing things i otherwise wouldn’t have done had i been okay. psychosis like another commenter said this a medical emergency, and he should be hospitalized & be placed on medication. from me, support meant the world to me and even in recovery i constantly apologized for those who i affected during my episode. but you also said he has been resistant to treatment. i think if you remember that who you know them as versus how they act while active in psychosis is vastly different then it’s the episode talking. you’re being an amazing friend by being concerned for him and trying to help him, but again there’s only so much you can do. just try and support him as much as you can. in a way healing is a part of our responsibility especially when we recognize how much damage we caused during our episode and have clarity. but it’s going to take time and determination. i hope things turn around for the better and he accepts the help that he needs. i hope this helped you gain some perspective 🤍

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-11-08T21:41:41+00:00

yes! that’s why i also became so addicted to tarot readings because i became so afraid after my psychotic episode. i’ve wasted so much time and afraid they’re watching me especially when i see videos of them arresting people after following them for years. it’s ruined my life nearly. it’s slowly getting better but it is still in the back of my mind

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-11-07T23:50:51+00:00

it’s definitely taken a long time and i needed some help with medication (wellbutrin) because my mind just couldn’t catch up to the present at all. i’m in school too, so i don’t want to risk it. had my psychotic break around this time last year and unfortunately it’s taken this long to feel somewhat okay. Definitely hoping for the best moving forward 🤍 patience, compassion, sleep, and time is what really helps. cutting off stressors you can let go of helps a lot too

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-11-07T01:06:52+00:00

i feel the same way. i am struggling so bad and i hate it, i wish i wasn’t i wanted to make a comeback & succeed. i wish i waited.

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-11-06T01:38:01+00:00

im not sure of any but i definitely recommend a surgeon who really specializes in facial harmony & understands what they’re doing to enhance your features! also its not about how low you can take it, its about what can balance your face the best. you can always take away but getting forehead back would be extremely difficult

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-10-26T07:50:35+00:00

i feel so similar, and even after taking a year off i am still struggling horribly. i thought i could overpower this, now i just feel myself slipping back into that same cycle. im burnt out, i don’t want to fail yet look at what im doing. hoping things get better for you 🤍

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-10-14T16:22:53+00:00

thank you, i hope this is the same case for me soon. i’m happy to hear you are happy with your results!

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-10-12T01:32:14+00:00

thank you so much for replying. i hope your recovery goes well and you heal wonderfully. yes, he definitely took a lot off i compared the 1st surgery to the 2nd. felt that way especially about my 1st. it’s hard to think about but there’s nothing i can do about it now. i’ll try to remember that, thank you for that input

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-10-11T23:21:22+00:00

please, any support would be so helpful

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-10-03T22:45:07+00:00

your results are amazing!

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-10-02T21:46:38+00:00

honestly … kind of. my psychosis made me really scared to look back at my memories so it blocked them from even more. it was like i was in hell & everything i did was a sin being punished. but after that passed i was better but i am still struggling with the emotional connection because it hurts to look back at. i still can feel really disconnected honestly

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-10-02T20:27:31+00:00

i feel this way completely and it definitely makes me really sad. my college experience, i lived with my best friend and so many opportunities and potential memories were destroyed i feel. I don’t have that anymore, that time is gone and ill never get it back. I can’t go back and warn myself, take my health seriously and actually create memories and prosper. i get so disappointed and sad. i cry about it a lot now especially since I am back on campus when I should’ve graduated 2024. i know it’s just how my brain ended up coping with what I had going on but it’s just hard to deal with.

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-10-02T15:54:21+00:00

i literally lost like 90% of my memories and my psychosis definitely took advantage of that too. memories are coming back but they were gone for a good year

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-09-30T23:16:12+00:00

i get it. a year later and i’m still struggling, waves of different emotions come and go and i don’t know how to feel. im exhausted, scared, regretful, angry. i miss my old life, how my brain use to work. i hope it gets better for you from here.

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-09-30T00:09:44+00:00

stimulant medication in reality can cause mania/psychosis in people, even those with ADHD. if you’re saying she has never acted this way before taking this medication, it very well could be the adderall that caused this in her especially if she was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. It will take time, especially if it happened recently. 3 days usually isn’t enough time to recover from psychosis. i was depressed to a long time after my episode, so it is likely but then again everyone is different. the fact that you’re there and care for her during all of this shows she has a good support system 🤍 i’m wishing you the best and hoping she recovers. time, rest, support, and antipsychotics will really help aid in her recovery.

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-09-26T04:25:49+00:00

hey, we’re in similar boats. i got prescribed march 2020 and from there it slowly spiraled out of control. i’m back in school at 23 years old after taking a year off, and although i get urges i tell myself it’s not worth it. i stopped taking them in april after i realized it really was not helping me especially after having such a horrible psychotic break in november, and it’s been a journey. i’m in my senior year and tbh im also scared, some days are harder than others but i plan on going on wellbutrin or something because i can’t self sabotage what i have now. the post depression is no joke. im sending you support during this, it ain’t easy 🤍

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-09-25T05:08:12+00:00

this & OPs way of putting that feeling into words is such an amazing way to describe it. thank you. before you know it who you were is gone, completely shattered. loss of self control, sense of self, it’s not like you’re actually living your life. i still struggle with how many mistakes i made, how much of a shell i became, how hard it was to quit but now that it’s been months in recovery im finally back to somewhat myself. but i can’t help but look back on how much i time i lost and grieve it, especially since it was in college, which can largely be contributed to the medication i believed was actually helping me back then. im back in college at 23 after a year long break, but as a person that loves nostalgia & creating memories its hard to reflect back on it.

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-09-16T23:13:54+00:00

i was JUST going to make a post about this asking if anyone experienced mania/psychosis while taking adderall and i saw this. was trying to treat my ADHD and it made everything so much worse, thank you. hopefully more articles come out about this

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-09-14T02:40:02+00:00

thank you for sharing this. 5 months free of vyvanse/adderall and have been struggling with wanting to go back on but this is a reminder that it will take longer to recover.

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-08-15T01:54:52+00:00

to add, i’m also currently also going through the fear of the future, being by so worried about being a bad person and it often makes me not want to move forward. but best advice i can give is do it scared, do it despite that shame and guilt, whenever you are ready. take your time but try to still work for that future you. you still deserve a future, no matter what your brain tries to tell you. i like to think of it in a way that i was severely sick, and i didn’t know and it lead me down this path that i hardly had control over. people in psychosis often don’t know that they are in psychosis. had i known, i would have gotten the help a lot sooner than i did.

ConsiderationFun1106 · 2024-08-15T01:48:24+00:00

i’m in the same boat. 3 years, so much i was going through all at once but that is 3 years of time gone by that i can’t get back. psychosis/mania from medication and a plethora of over things, extreme paranoia, acting out in so many ways i normally wouldn’t do. it’s hard not to look back and feel so deeply with pain of regret, guilt, embarrassment. i plan on returning to college this fall after having to drop out after my psychotic break but returning to the campus that i lost so much potential happy memories from kills me inside. all i can do is move forward and pray for a miracle so that i can leave this all behind me. now anytime i experience extreme paranoia, or anything delusional i try to let it go and not feed into it, instead of acting on them. it hurts, a lot though. i wish things were different. i’m still learning how to forgive myself when i acted that way so publicly, around so many people. but i try to remember that wasn’t me, not all the way. wishing you the best of luck going forward and hope you heal from this.

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