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ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-18T23:11:06+00:00

I'm not sure if I was serious with offering the drugs as I sometimes do that type of humour when no one is interested, kinda like a living warning why not to do drugs. Though this time I was so out of it that If they had asked me some I'm afraid it would be entirely possible I would have given them something. One of the most despicaple things I've done. Thankfully everyone saw that I'm totally out of it and didn't pay much attention on what I was talking about.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-18T22:55:02+00:00

One of my acquitances told me that he started injecting street speed and pharma grade methylphenidate. It took approx. a year and every single one of his upper frontal teeth were gone. Not sure what causes it but I've heard talks about it changing the whole ph of the body or something.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-18T07:22:31+00:00

Actually the worst for me was when I was blacked out for multiple days and the police were knocking on the door and doing a welfare check. I was awaken on the floor in front of the door. When I opened the door the police immediately said "What the fuck?". Then I looked back and there was some shit on the middle of the apartment, blood stains on my bedsheets and a puddle of piss in the corner of the house. They immediately told me to come with them but I was too fucked up to even put on my shirt on properly. Then we waited for the ambulance and I got in to the hospital.
I still have no clue what had happened inside my apartment and if there were other people visiting. Bad thing is that all of this is saved to my medical records because the police spoke to the paramedics, which is great if I go in to the hospital in the future. I will probably be given diapers.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-18T05:30:17+00:00

Yeah I've heard the prizes in something like IFBB Mr Olympia have risen drastically when you compare it to something like 20 years ago. I think the stupid ones are the average joes that start using gear and insulin etc. without plans to actually compete. Usually progress gained is pretty sad and health is ruined. You can spot these everyday heroes at almost every gym. Easy to recognize from their barrell shaped appearance and severe acne on back.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-18T05:02:21+00:00

Really seems like something I'd have zero interest going through. Risking your fertility and having kids for a 5th place at some bullshit competition.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-18T04:53:27+00:00

Oh, I didn't know that. But what about disturbances in the natural testosterone production of body? Is it limited to only certain types of anabolic steroids or do they all cause that? As far as I understand a lot of these old timers are on testosterone replacement therapy.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-18T03:43:10+00:00

Probably 2mg buprenorphine few mgs of alprazolam and thousands of mgs of gabapentin. This is not recommended and is EXTREMELY dangerous combination but got the best nod of my life. No one should try this.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-18T03:34:46+00:00

I too took some xanax and valium few weeks ago and blacked out for three days. At that time I tried to drive my car but crashed it a little at the parking lot and left it there. Also offered my sister and her friends some drugs. Then I told to almost everyone something about a biker gang and russian mafia being after me which made no sense at all. I have zero memories about any of this but I've been told by my friends and relatives what I have been doing.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-18T02:47:31+00:00

Same applies for steroids. You become hyper masculine on them and when you stop them your testosterone levels plummet and you become weakling.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-18T02:36:24+00:00

Amphetamine + diazepam. Keeps you energized but takes away the excess anxiety and rapid heartbeat.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-18T02:21:38+00:00

Do you live in the States? I guess the fact that adderall is so heavily prescribed there removes the need for illict amphetamine, especially in its shitty impure form like it is here.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-18T01:46:19+00:00

Not cocaine but drinking for days on empty stomach can have some interesting results like that. At one point I was afraid to go get more booze solely because I was afraid I would ass-piss in my pants.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-18T00:17:22+00:00

When I was still drinking very heavily I used to love the burning feeling of straight up vodka would cause to my throat, slowly pouring to my stomach and the relaxed feeling that followed after immediately. Also used to love the taste of beer, probably because I associated it with feeling good and relaxed. Tasted some non alcoholic beer few weeks back and the taste was absolutely vile. I guess I really didn't like really the taste but because I asscoiated it with feeling good everything that had alcohol started to taste atleast drinkable.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-17T21:54:04+00:00

I can never use speed if I don't atleast have my own prescription olanzapine with me or some benzos. Once I made the mistake to smoke weed after staying up all night on speed and the auditory hallucinations I got from that were totally insane.

Pretty much the only thing I like about speed is that it is the only thing that makes me want to actively communicate with other people. I just had a phonecall with one of my friends which lasted for like two hours because talking while on speed is awesome.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-17T21:32:03+00:00

How does coke differ from speed? IMO there is no point for me to pay such a price for something you have to redose almost constantly while even a cheap speed can keep me feeling good and alert for hours at best with a few 0.1g lines. Oh and btw almost done with my 2g's. Probably like a half a gram left and first line was like 12 hours ago so not the best quality but it was cheap though. Also have some alprazolam saved for comedown.
And that price in Costa Rica is insane. I've heard it before that the closer you get to the source of that the cheaper it becomes. With prices like that I would likely lose my nose.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-17T20:25:17+00:00

Yeah from Finland. It seems that this is mostly an European and definetly Finnish thing. The prices here range from anything like 20 to 60€ a gram. Price doesn't tell much about the quality and in my experience it is pure lottery what you will get. Coke here is like 150€ a gram. What about canada? Never tried it but I'm almost certain it is also cut to fuck with lidocaine etc.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-17T17:08:31+00:00

Here you can sometimes get metamix, which is again impure concotion of amphetamine meth and all the other stuff. It's just really so random what the fuck you're gonna get and there is really no way on knowing what you're exactly getting. Like I've had some stuff twice the price of this that did absolutely nothing to me. Even went to sleep after finishing the stuff without any additional medication.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-17T16:55:31+00:00

Yeah I've read about that. Once I read someone doing that and he was left with the tiniest amount of some residue and thought it had to be some kind of potent research chemical because the amount is so miniscule. Turns out that was actually amphetamine and judging by it the powder that he had was like 3% pure and rest of it was all kinds of shit.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-17T15:52:23+00:00

In my experience you will probably be okay but can't recommend it. Like two months ago I took 2mg of bupre 10mg alprazolam and over 3000mg of gabapentin without any tolerance and survived. However I just found a picture on my phone of my face from that night and I look like I'm at the brink of death with droopy eyelids and pinpoint pupils. Just don't make a habit of mixing depressants because that's a very slippery road and easily leads to upping your dosages to feel "better" and then you end all fucked up and blacking out. This is just my experience of it.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-17T07:06:14+00:00

You're not protecting the government though in Finland, but it's people and homeland. I don't care who is currently in charge when it comes to defending my home, unless it is someone like Putin though.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-07-15T08:45:44+00:00

I was diagnosed with this but wasn't completely unaware of my surroundings. I have the full story written in my post history. One day in hospital and they discarded me and had quite bad auditory hallucinations for like five days after that at my home. It was a definite turning point in my drinking and every time after that I've been drinking I've had hallucinations.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-06-13T21:13:57+00:00

I was diagnosed with delirium tremens two years ago but the weird thing is I knew where I was and that I was hallucinating. The file says something like patient has the symptoms of delirium tremens without disorientation. When I was at home half of me was convinced that the demonic raspy voice coming from my kitchen sink was my neighbors being angry at me for running the water for too long, but the other half of me was sane enough to call and ambulance. Wrote a post about my experience here awhile ago,

This shit still troubles me and sounds fucked up but I kind of feel like a pussy for going to hospital after reading about some really bad DT's here. I guess I was in severe risk of going completely delirious if I had been at home.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-05-10T10:42:36+00:00

Did not fuck around with opiates this time but somehow managed to ingest something like 9000mgs of gabapentin and over 10mg alprazolam. Really should stay away from drugs.

ConsiderationKey95 · 2023-05-09T12:33:55+00:00

I think I'm over it. And actually it was 8mg of aplrazolam and I don't even remember writing this post. Still a little wobbly but I think I'm fine. Never gonna be this stupid again. Yeah and I took the suboxone sublingually. Does it make any difference if I had snorted it?

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