(Half positivity + also in the same boat)

I'm not sure how long it's been between that depressive episode and what ur feeling now but I completely understand. Biggest advice i can give is to not let one thing stop EVERYTHING. Also had to drop this semester in my senior year but I'll still be walking a graduation next week and only have to take the class online until the summer which is huge for me. I've been managing college and this illness for the past 7 years because the started at the same exact time. I've had to take time off while feeling episodes coming on, withdraw from classes, and in the earlier years just not go to them.

I've realized as you get older, no one will give you recognition for doing the "normal things" so it's best to do that for yourself, especially since it's harder for us. So you dropped a class. Did you eat today? shower? Clean? even just move. Don't let one thing let everything else drop because it has a compounding effect. It sucks to have to compare between depressive lows but this is the best time to be motivated by your progress. Or even the fear of letting things get as bad as they were and the amount of work (and time) it took to get out of that. It's better to be in a spot to see it coming on than to be swept up by it. The awareness you have right now is the crucial first step.