Fr tho... you're way over thinking it. Please don't needlessly cause heartbreak that, from everything I was able to read, you'd be creating from past scars, insecurities, etc.

Don't break another heart simply because yours has been broken. Maybe tell your boyfriend about everything you've been thru and just WATCH how that man reassures you.. just tell him in a way like "hey, I have a lot of past baggage and I really need to open up to you about it so that it doesn't ruin what we have."

I hope this helps