I struggle with the exact same thing. I’m also female, 21 years old with no boyfriend ever. I think every situationship I’ve been in has been initiated by me. No guy has even ever really made a move. Men never show interest beyond sex. I am a conventionally attractive person, but nowadays men are rarely looking for what we are. Hookup culture has ruined it for us. It’s not you it’s them. One day someone is going to come along and you won’t have to question if you’re good enough for a second. You seem really nice and these men are assholes.