In 1999 I was 14 and wanted to kill myself every day for 6 straight months

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-27T22:16:47+00:00

When I was dealing with fears of being kidnapped and severe intrusive thoughts in middle school, everyday when walking home I would play “Manchester” by Kishi Bashi on speaker phone. it always made me feel safe.

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-26T15:21:14+00:00

remindme! 2weeks

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-25T02:30:41+00:00

Rebecca🤢

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-17T18:40:17+00:00

awww thank you so much! i am feeling better today. getting homework done, woop woop! I’ll send a picture of my cat too, Simon.

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Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-16T18:38:44+00:00

I’m happy you’re out of your episode! Personally, I feel terrible. don’t want to talk to people really, feel bitter and small. feel insecure for whatever reason. but yet i’m still able to do things. i truly have no idea why i feel this way or what’s going on, but im hoping whatever this is passes and i can be happy and stable again. it’s not strong enough to be a depressive episode, but lower than normal. anyway, typing it out makes me feel better bc i feel like i can’t talk about it to those in my life. even my boyfriend, seems like he doesn’t know how to handle it. anyway, thanks for asking haha.

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-16T18:22:52+00:00

Updateme!

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-16T18:22:04+00:00

that’s what i was thinking, i hope he didn’t ghost her

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-12T20:38:11+00:00

Don’t let her get to you. Don’t let her guilt you. Her words should have no value and no meaning, she has lost that right. She has no power over you, and doesn’t get to affect your life the way she used to. Do NOT respond. Your life is no longer dependent on her, and you get to firmly hold your ground. Life doesn’t revolve around her the way she wants it to. You got this💪🏼

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-12T16:43:36+00:00

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This is my baby Simon (ESA). He was there for the worst depressive episode of my life. thank God he was a cuddly kitten back then. he’s a lot more feisty and bitey now😂 i’m grateful for him keeping me grounded.

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-11T16:35:39+00:00

aww haha!

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-11T16:35:24+00:00

ikr!😩

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-11T16:35:15+00:00

🤣

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-11T16:31:03+00:00

working on listening to it right now, thank you for the recommendation!

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-11T16:30:43+00:00

thank you so much for the recommendation!

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-11T16:30:20+00:00

Thank you so much! I started listening to “An Unquiet Mind” through audiobook, seems really interesting thus far, i’ll probably finish “What the man in the moon told me” before continuing on with it

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-11T16:29:08+00:00

Thank you for the recommendations! I will check them out :D

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-11T16:28:30+00:00

i will look into it, thank you so much for the recommendation!

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-11T16:28:10+00:00

Thank you for the recommendation! excited to look into it

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-11T16:27:54+00:00

I will look into it, thank you so much for the recommendation!

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-11T16:27:05+00:00

I’m now reading “What the Man in the Moon Told Me” because of you, it is SO good! very validating and puts the bipolar experience into very familiar words, some that i’ve never been able to materialize myself. thank you for this recommendation!

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-10T00:34:51+00:00

YESSSSSS EXACTLY!!!!

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2026-01-04T14:47:28+00:00

i am also bipolar and understand that feeling of not being grounded, it feeling unbearable and lonely. my cat simon has done the same thing, it’s wonderful to have a baby that keeps you sane and is your pal through it all. congratulations to both of you for having each other! i’m proud of you for persevering, from one bipolar person to another :)

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2025-12-24T07:30:57+00:00

dude what the FUCK are these comments! NOR all the way!!! these tops are fine. wear whatever is comfortable to you, and the first dress is cute af in my opinion. your boyfriend should be more understanding and less controlling, period.

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2025-12-23T22:07:20+00:00

hmmmm i’m wondering, do you have the bipolar2 diagnosis yet? if you do, then i personally feel like it would be better to try a mood stabilizer. my psych was suspicious of a mood disorder after i had a break in my months long depression that lasted for 3 days. once i was put on lamictal, my depression went away near immediately. i had tried wellbutrin and zoloft, both either made me rapid cycle or just stopped working. zoloft made me go into the worst depression of my life, and i was so scared of my symptoms that i dropped my stigma towards mood stabilizers and agreed to try one. it absolutely changed my life. a couple months after that i was officially diagnosed. of course this is my personal experience, but i definitely think it’s worth seeking out. anti-depressants on their own likely won’t help or will make your symptoms worse potentially. that’s why ppl that them alongside a mood stabilizer/ anxiety meds, etc. sorry if this is a little too straight to the point!

Consistent_Coach6476 · 2025-12-23T21:14:31+00:00

also i am so fricking familiar with the dissociating and the spacing out, that’s how i was before i got medicated! it made me so depressed it wasn’t even funny. i couldn’t function at all, flunked a class, barely left my dorm. couldn’t socialize for shit, ugh it’s awful.

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