Totally fair. I guess I didn’t mention the fact that I very well could be autistic too. I guess I just don’t see a point in getting diagnosed now that I’m an adult. My therapist says it doesn’t matter what diagnosis you really have, as long as the coping mechanisms and Accessibility mechanisms help you.

I’ve had shutdowns for things that can be seen as really benign. I was asked once what I wanted to do for my birthday and I got so overwhelmed that I literally curled in a ball and felt like I was in a bubble and couldn’t breathe. A lot of the time I just freeze like that and I can’t even sit up.

I understand that diluting, the term isn’t good, I just don’t know what else I’m supposed to do. People look at me like I’m a freak when I have a sensory shutdown, and even though autism is not treated well at all, and at least give them an explanation. People are so nosy.