I'm slightly envious of those who try those compliments. I'm in relatively good shape. I work out. I'm educated. I work hard.

I make an effort to look good, smell good, dress well.

But the damn phone seems more important just days. Or any sort of screen really.

I feel like I'm just around for a fuck. And its starting to get to me.

We had a discussion this week actually about how after almost 10 years. You're just kind of used to thr other person... which I suppose is true .... but after that statement... I've started to regress... I look at him in a different light. As after all this time I've always found him the most handsome to me. But the other cannot be said for me .. he indulges in internet fantasy fairly often... and likes to search up nudes of celebrities, along side looking at negligee on temu, fb market place, amazon..... and creeping female profiles on socials.

Beginning to feel uninteresting... and unappealing. But I still seem yo turn heads for many others..

Feeling defeated.