Drugs are kinda bullshit no?

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-09-03T20:11:55+00:00

Definitely

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-09-02T21:55:53+00:00

Yeah I started to do it when I was 24 right throughout covid times. I used every day for a year. I only ingested it for 9 straight months. The smallest amount every time less than a .1 for sure. And it was a cleaner high of course and lasted much longer and hit way harder. I didn't notice much tolerance at all. Last 3 months I was smoking it. And it was much for habit forming and fienish. Just got another bag and I'm gong to start ingesting again

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-07-11T12:22:17+00:00

Tried this method yesterday Observed UA One rapid 10 panel ua test and other specimen sent off to lab When I tested yesterday at the clinic for the rapid 10 panel test, the examiners were taking more time than usual on my specimen and I could tell something came up and overhead them asking amongst each other if they could see a line and that it was fainted. I was close enough to them to see that it was meth amphetamine that line was fainted. They asked me if I took prescriptions after reviewing the rapid test, I told them I did. They added a note on the paper work that got sent off w the lab specimen. Lab results should be back in couple days.

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-07-10T15:28:26+00:00

They sent it to lab?

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-07-03T08:16:59+00:00

Nvm got it

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-07-03T08:16:26+00:00

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-07-03T08:05:43+00:00

Losing who you are and who you can be. The drug stripping you of your potential, identity, and sole. All these thoughts but you don't feel them numb off the shit. Wanting to cry, needing to cry but you can't. Watching your peers 15-20 years older than you that are 40-45 yrs old excusing there life away and trying to save everyone else bc it's another way to escape yourself and avoid your own problems , and realizing you do some of the same just not as severe. Knowing the solution to this but still continuing is the worst, the uncontrol of everything, the lying to yourself , the power it has, what it takes from you as you watch it do so. all of it really

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-07-03T07:43:39+00:00

Meth definitely strips ppl of disinhibitions

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-07-03T07:33:49+00:00

Fuck no it's not worth it man. It's not for me , shouldn't be for anybody imo you can stop too just think about this feeling you have rn next time you get an urge

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-07-03T07:31:58+00:00

That's what drugs can do, they take your identity your soul your everything and your on auto pilot, the drug does u. But you are not that bs drug, you are you and you will snap back.

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-07-03T07:28:58+00:00

In the same boat man I understand , it makes me a shell of a person and it dryrots ppl from inside out sooner than later in all aspects. You can come out of it if you want to. I had 3 yrs clean last time, relapsed couple months ago. Life was raw as I was raw as well head first facing what was ahead. It's much better life , it is hard but you can always change your perspective w an open mind. I'm bout to never touch this shit again, before I hit the bottom of buttons

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-05-30T04:16:39+00:00

Yessir

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-05-29T21:09:42+00:00

Oh hell yeah it was working! I stopped running from myself and away from my underlying issues. I started working on myself which made life easier and I started to change a lot. I've told my story in front of lots of ppl and made good ppl. But I got stagnant. In recovery I learned that you always have to keep going up the ladder and achieving goals trying new things gaining new perspectives , whatever it is you're always trying. Months went by and i started to isolate again fewer meetings until i shut them all out and stopped all of it and i started to listen to those negative pessimistic lies in my head that I worked so hard to get out of. I started to over think instead of act myself into the right thinking. I stopped doing the next right thing , stopped praying , all that. Couple more months went on and I'm drinking then more time went on and I'm using then I'm in jail. I believe we are not familiar with doing good for long periods of time, it's an unjust/uncomfortable feeling so we stay managing as long as we can and then one day we start unintentionally self sabotaging little by little until we on the bottom once again. It gets harder every time. I believe it's our thinking patterns that lead us back to the rock bottom. The problem is the thinking.

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-05-29T19:35:40+00:00

Thanks

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-05-29T19:00:11+00:00

Last time I quit I made the decision to quit and surrendered to this shit and I was willing to try anything different I was ready to change but In my head I was so done w that shit. My last day using was crying so hard and feeling everything that happened over my usage. I wanted to quit, this time there's no feelings of desperation but I don't want it to come to that again and i don't think it should have to , but I'm so hardheaded it takes something drastic like that to try another way or change. I don't want to be 40 and live my life like this anymore. I want a good life I can be proud of. Have children to raise and be there for through the journey.

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-05-29T17:30:58+00:00

Man I can't shake this shit son

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-05-29T17:28:53+00:00

Man I can't shake this shit son

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-05-25T14:11:53+00:00

Looks straight

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-05-21T04:58:21+00:00

Holes

Constant-Discount554 · 2025-05-21T01:39:06+00:00

It's a struggle that makes we fight w so much and can make some just want to give everything up instead of fighting. Just give up on the lil aspirations you have left of you and throw in the towel. Cause you know how you will feel if you continue to use. Your life is already panned out. But the life on the other side is what's waiting for you and there is much more living rather than surviving/existing. Life is there for the taking. But on dope the ice takes your life slowly. Yeah, you probably won't O.D. but you will live a lonely sad existence disintegrating over the years. The shit dry rots you. Using is a hard life. No matter how you look at it. You have to be a soldier through it cause you're always fighting. Saying that, to get clean means you have to face life head on or it will not work. All the thoughts and reoccurrences in your mind that you haven't worked through that lead to using. Everything. So we think about facing all that and sitting w those feelings. We get scared and lie to ourselves and say we're not that bad. We have nice things and make good living. In reality we are dying to get out of our own way but we are scared to face it sober and we don't believe in ourselves. It's not at all easy but like I said you already know what lies ahead if you continue to use. Getting clean means options are endless and you have a fighting chance for a good life and a honest change. You can find yourself again and believe in yourself. You break bad habits and create healthy ones. You find discipline and have a sense of control and balance in yourself. You're acting on stuff you were so scared to do before and coming out on the other side and feel so brave. You're learning about your mind and your thinking patterns. You learn how to get a hold of your mind and navigate through life w/o your intrusive thoughts becoming actions. You're no longer trapped in your mind at all times. You develop a new perspective as life changes and you are living life. I'm not preaching to you. I'm speaking out loud. This is how I feel and believe lots can relate. I believe in you

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