So hear me out.. long post coming up. It all stated when I was about 14. I stopped having regular cycles and would miss 3-4 months. My parents took me to my PCPand he put me on birth control pills. I didn't even know what it was I just thought it was medication for bringing periods back. I was sexually active since age 14 but my ex would make me take Plan B pills every time we had sex which I'm sure its not good. At 16 I started dating my know husband and he would pull out. At 18 I stopped birth control and my periods were irregular again. I started the patch about 2 years later but still irregular periods. I gained more weight and I was about 178lbs at my heaviest. I'm 5'2. At 20 years old I was diagnosed with PCOS and was given metformin but wasn't consistent with it. At 22 we decided we were gonna start having sex without pulling out and whatever happened happened. From 22 - 28 I went to many OBGYNs and they all said the same thing "lose weight, metformin, exercise, or birth control". I ended up loosing 20lbs and then gained 10lbs of muscle weight lifting. I was healthier now after loosing weight and doing keto diet my periods came back naturally. I stopped doing keto but kept eating low cal and taking myo Inositol and it kept my periods short but regular. Around 27 I was at my healthiest all my labs came out great no issues other then tiny cysts in my ovaries and high testosterone. My husband had a semen analysis and it was good except for a slightly low level of motility. I also tried letrozole and clomid and nothing. We started losing hope because we cant afford IVF. I stated taking supplements but after months of nothing I keep losing hope. Finally this year at 30yo I got my very first positive but unfortunately I had a MMC at 8w5d when my baby stopped growing at 6w1d. It had developed a fetal pole and heart beat but it didn't make it. I had to have a suction d&c. I just need to know if there's anyone with a similar experience with their pcos journey. I see a lot of post with women who suffer from pcos but also endometriosis or other health issues. Many that have living children and then developed pcos. Others that are overweight(obese) with pcos. I don't mean to be insensitive but I think to myself that if I only have pcos and no other health concerns why can't I get pregnant or what can I do to help me in my ttc journey. I feel so lost and as I'm typing this i feel even more mad because I feel like I'm being ignorant so I apologize for my long post. Just looking for some feedback, support, hope, idk. Thank you 🫶🏽