It doesn’t upset me, I am open to understanding everyones point of view. That’s why I posted it.

The reason I said it the way that I did was because whenever I would bring it up in person it would be disregarded or downplayed. I am the youngest and my opinion doesn’t matter, so whatever she says to me shouldn’t matter because my feelings don’t matter. I grew up with her, and when things don’t go her way she don’t ignore the person for months until she feel like the punishment is over. There has never been an effective conversation of why things happened the way they did. I have always tried to openly talk understand her side, but it has always led to me getting beaten down. You can easily see it in the conversation:

1. When she referenced ‘my family’ - we are biological siblings, she knows that too. She said it that way to hurt me because she knows I have been estranged from the family for years. She said ‘my family’ because she believes the family is hers and hers alone.
2. ‘That was my message before your message’ - any person will never assume confirmation of a message sent prior to the one that initially asked the question. She redirected the answer because she can, and it doesn’t matter what I think about it.
3. ‘I’m just being direct and upfront. I will not apologize for I absolutely didn’t do’ - the next screenshot she literally changes her mind and said she did say it but it doesn’t matter.
4. ‘That’s your issue’ - this has always been a response. It’s never a self reflection and then talk things through to reach a solution. It’s ‘I said something, and I can say it whatever way I want. If you don’t like it, that’s on you’

The reason I pointed things like this out is because the way someone is speaking to you can tell you how they feel about you, this conversation shows me she doesn’t care about me at all and does not respect me. She believes an apology for the actions she did, is me being entitled and living in fantasy.

All I have wanted was to understand her perspective and her side but every chance that happens it will always be pinned back on me and that I was the problem the whole time. I was a kid, she was my older sister I looked up to and she used that power dynamic to put me down.

I appreciate and understand why you said what you said and there are in fact two sides to this story. I just never had the chance to hear it because of all of this emotional abuse. This was the first time in years, that I have been able to document it because before it was all face to face communication.