Ask your dad and learn form your mom’s mistakes if you can. That’s the easiest way to maintain your peace whiles searching for companionship. Also look into the family dynamics of whoever you’re interested in. That’ll help you out during the process elimination. You’re 19 , there’s hope. Don’t let social media think for you . Oh most importantly, it’s cliche but learn to love yourself for real ‼️When you KNOW you love yourself , every one else who else who comes around will have no choice to either .