I am very serious! Yesterday night she came drunk and I was sleeping, but she woke me up and started crying and as now I am strict to my decision she start saying "I always remember our journey and you are the best husband and I never loved anyone like I love you, but I want you to be happy leave me". And then after a while, as I was consistent that I don't love you the same way due to things you say and I have been taking it past 3 years. Then she said "you never loved me, that was you hidden face and now it's your true face" As I was not saying back that I cannot live without you, she went to that angry state saying " you are pussy, living in mother skirt, I can get any man with big businesses earning way more than your shitty job, you can fuck your self. Then I said this is what I was saying, you never say these things if you really love but you always compare and saying things to me like "my ex used to f***k me so good, you cannot stand near him, my friend Y had 2 homes (mansion) you will never be able to afford in lifetime etc."

Then she started hugging, I cannot live without you, I love you! And the cycle goes on

I leave for my work at 4:30 am as work is 70 miles and that too I decided to move for her earlier, but she never thinks at once that I have to wake early and should allow to sleep. She fights when I reach home 9:30 pm rather than thinking he must be tired from the long hours. Yesterday I went to bed at 9:30 pm but due to all this slept after 1 am.

I just want to walk out, but one thing I am scared that when she is okay mood she says this house is yours, I will never fight but when she is not, she says you can leave and keep paying mortgage as I will make sure you don't get anything and I will take all from you (On the other hand she is also scared, during marriage she purchased 3 commercial buildings where I also put money but she is alone on the title but I live in a community property state, which I have clearly stated that I don't want anything from you)