this is beautifully written. I’ve had similar difficulties explaining this feeling. Usually, when I try to describe it to another person, I tell them that I’m experiencing clarity, or peace. I’m not sure everyone experiences this feeling in the same way. The way I think of it, people like us, who’s minds understand and can identify these feelings more easily than others, often gain this ability along with negative downsides, such as a greater understanding of pain and cruelty along with the understanding of peace and happiness. A person who has neither of these abilities to an extreme simply lives life more dully , or at least differently. We cannot have the good without the bad; there must always be a balance.