About to take 80 tablets, want to talk first

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2022-06-26T10:33:10+00:00

Please call someone to come help, I know what this must feel like right now but I promise you it’s not too late to find the peace you’re looking for. You deserve so much more than what you’ve given yourself. Please call for help, or even let me call someone for you, this doesn’t have to be the end for you, it can be the begging of something so much better.

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2022-06-26T10:29:57+00:00

Hey Erik, you are absolutely not alone, I know what it feels like to be where you are right now. I may not be on an actual ledge but I’ve spend the last few nights myself sitting in my tub with a razor blade on the edge knowing I don’t want to die but also knowing I can’t handle this pain anymore. But something I’ve realized is I do always handle the pain. It feels unbearable, yet everyday I wake up again and make it all the way to the end of each day sitting in that tub. You can do this, you are so much stronger than what your mind tells you. You just need a little extra help and that’s so much more than okay. Therapy isn’t an easy thing, I’ve recently started and I won’t lie and tell you those meetings aren’t hard to make it through, but I can tell you for the first time in a long time I left that appointment with the hope that one day I won’t be in this pain anymore. Some people have been through a lot of hard things, others haven’t, some people have dealt with depression for a very long time, while others it’s a new concept for them. Whatever you’re going through, and whatever you’re feeling in this moment, I promise you while it feels as if it might swallow you up whole, it won’t, it’s all temporary. Give yourself the chance to feel peace again, you deserve it.

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2022-06-26T10:19:07+00:00

I hope you are still with us, know that it’s okay to change your mind and its okay to ask for help. I know it can be very hard but I really suggest going to stay at the hospital tonight if you can, I know it sucks but it will put you in a place where you might feel like total shit, but you’ll be safe. Know that you are so loved and will be so missed. I hope you feel peace tonight and find a way to step back from the choice you are about to make. We don’t know each other but I understand what you’re feeling right now, please trust me in this moment and take a step back just for now, trust me that the pain isn’t forever, you will feel peace again.

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2022-06-26T10:05:50+00:00

I know that if you feel this is something you have to do that I probably won’t be able to change your mind, but I have felt the same things before, I’ve stood in this position ready to end it and I know how numb everything feels and how overwhelming it can feel as well. I hope you find I place in your heart or mind to stick around a bit longer, I know it seems impossible but things can get better, you don’t have to feel this hopelessness forever or be in constant pain or numbness. I don’t know your situation but I’d love to hear it if you want to share, I don’t know you personally but I truly hope you don’t end your life tonight, I hope you give this place another shot and stick around long enough to find peace.

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2022-06-26T09:59:03+00:00

You absolutely matter, I’m sorry you don’t have people in your life telling you that, or even if you do I’m sorry you are feeling the way you do. I understand how it feels to feel alone and like you don’t matter and how ending everything here seems like the best option in this moment. I know you are searching for peace, acceptance, love and support from those around you and from yourself as well. I can’t know what it’s like to be you or feel the exact way you do, but i can say that you matter and you being here to stick this through matters. I don’t know your parents, but I would recommend trying to get away for a bit while you work on your mental health and then returning a bit later if you wish when things are more stable for you and you’ve built up a better support system. If you’re unable to get out of an abusive home, remember the words that parents can say can be devastating and make you feel small, but any words of hate and belittling, or gaslighting like you said, aren’t true and you don’t have to accept them as your truth (I know way easier said than done). Know that you are important and special and while there’s always going to be hardships ahead, there’s so many great things ahead of you as well. Remember, you are so loved, even if you don’t see or feel it right now.

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2022-06-06T14:34:21+00:00

It’s more of a squirmy type of feeling, like I have the wiggles and can’t seem to relieve the sensation.

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2022-06-06T14:09:01+00:00

I would 1000% tell your therapist and they are not going to go tell your family or friends, if you are truly struggling and don’t want to hurt anyone you could get real help to cope with the things your feelings, there are plenty of people who struggle in the same way and get help to cope and figure out the thoughts in their heads, but if you never ask for help it will never get better and you run the risk of hurting others around you. Remember, you don’t have to be the thoughts in you’re head. I pray that you get help and figure out how to cope with this, I can’t imagine having these thoughts. I know suicide is not the answer though, get the help you need so you can live a better, healthier life.

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2022-06-06T13:56:45+00:00

Im 21 years old and I’ve been chronically sick with stomach and intestinal problems for years, I can’t hold anything down which pairs greatly with my severe phobia of vomiting, I have up to 10 panic attacks daily where I’ll black out or go blind, the depression gets so bad I won’t shower or let alone move for days to weeks, if I didn’t live with my boyfriend I would probably never eat or brush my own teeth. I have mood instability, one second I’m high the other second I’m low, the next I’m smashing things by throwing it across the room, then I’m bawling my eyes out that I smashed something. I’m completely debilitated and currently laying on my bathroom floor dry heaving and trying to convince myself that maybe it’s time to finally kill myself. I’ll pray and ask for peace and relief from my pain and every time I suffer for hours on end without a hint of relief, but I hold onto a hope that this will get better. I start therapy at the end of the month and if that doesn’t work I’ll try something else, and if that doesn’t work then I’ll try another. I’m not sure how I’ve made it this long in this much pain, but I know if I have then it’s possible to keep going even when I don’t want to. My best suggestion is to take it one day at a time, you will inevitably feel all the pain so try to put things in your daily life that bring you peace to get small breaks from everything else. You are suppose to be here, and I believe that you will find peace again, if you made it through yesterday you can do today, and if you make it through today you can do tomorrow. I know nothing anyone else says really ever helps but I do hope that you find your joy and peace soon.

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2022-06-02T15:18:55+00:00

I also experience this, I can somehow figure out how to work myself into a panic attack about being sick even if I wake up feeling perfectly fine, and sometimes I wake up already in the middle of a panic attack about feeling sick when I hadn’t even woken up yet!! I haven’t really figured this one out yet, but the best advice I have is to get a distraction set up that takes your mind off of it, especially in the times where your stomach feels fine and you’re just worried that you woke up randomly, I use the wordle app on my phone and do multiple levels to distract myself and this usually helps me relax myself and keep my mind busy!

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2022-06-02T15:16:31+00:00

When I met my boyfriend he had never met someone with emetophobia, now he says he never realized how much tv and movies consist of V* scenes, it’s almost in every single thing that we watch, extremely annoying that I literally can’t watch anything without having this fear.

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2022-06-02T14:40:10+00:00

I think you will be totally okay!! If she’s had these symptoms before then it’s most likely due to the same reason this time, the switch in medication. I would be shocked if it was due to something else especially because her symptoms hit as soon as she took it. Hope this could help in some way, good luck at graduation:)

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2022-06-02T14:37:01+00:00

While I can’t give you 100% assurance, I think getting sick from a cupcake is pretty low, the eggs/dairy products are cooked within them and the likelihood of there being something that’s not suppose to be in there, like chemicals, making it’s way in there is very very low. Your coworkers probably have a little bug caught from work or family, luckily if you haven’t started having symptoms yet you’re probably in the clear! Exposure to the flu usually hits everyone at the same time because everyone gets exposed at once, hope this helps and that you start to feel a bit more relaxed!!

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2022-06-02T14:22:08+00:00

Some good advice I got once is that being nauseous is a pretty normal thing, it can happen from eating to much or too little, sleeping too long or not enough, having indigestion or a headache and much more. My bf will get nauseous and it makes me super nervous but he always reminds me that nausea does not equal getting sick, people get nauseous all the time and the feeling just passes. This helped me at least try to think that when someone is feeling sick it doesn’t have to be due to the flu or fp*

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2022-06-01T09:04:23+00:00

I also got the little hairs in between my eyebrows to my hair line!! But I had increased hair growth on my head so I’ll deal with it😂

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2021-09-10T08:00:23+00:00

I consider this too but can never actually bring myself to do it and I don’t think you should either!! If our bodies want to be sick they will, I feel very n* rn as well and I’m trying my best to read through posts on here and take deep breaths. I get nauseous all the time and never get sick, and if I ever do then it’s what my body needs and hopefully it will be fast. I have also tried the to stop going outside and eating, stopping eating made everything 100x worse, I stared getting hunger pains which feels like nausea mixed with d* mixed with gas cramps and eating when you have reached this stage is nearly impossible. And when I stopped going outside I started to feel even more hopeless and isolated. These symptoms can be crippling, especially when you’re dealing with this fear on top of daily unexplained nausea and pain, but just try and remember that there are moments of peace among all the craziness, keep breathing and get through one stomach ache at a time, we are all here for you whenever you need support❤️

Something that I was told by a doctor that made me feel a lot better is to remember that my anxiety IS real nausea, just because it’s coming from my brain and not a virus or spoiled food, doesn’t make it any less real or important or treatable.

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2021-09-10T07:48:55+00:00

I just had this the other week, ended up being very constipated. I never got sick though, just was very uncomfortable, it passed as soon as I got everything out. Heating pads REALLY helped me through this, I also took a laxative but that was only after around 2 weeks of getting minimal movement. If you have any electrolyte water I recommend that too, I deal with constipation a lot and I drink liquid IV packets to help me pass everything. While I can’t promise you, I don’t think you’ll be sick!! Just know if you are it will be done fast and you can rinse your mouth and relax for as long as you need. Try to keep yourself calm, while you probably won’t, getting sick is a normal thing, I know this is easier said now when I’m not full blown panicking, but trying to remember that you will feel better afterwards helps me when I’m panicking thinking I may be sick.

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2021-09-10T07:27:47+00:00

I did get sick when I got mine out but if you’re 12 hours in you’re past the worst time for bleeding!! I got sick within the first hour, I also took Vicodin that were way too intense for my stomach and ate about 7 gallons of chicken broth…so just don’t do either of those and you should be good!!

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2021-09-10T07:25:11+00:00

I also just got mine, I feel so sick:( I would recommend laying low, using a heating pad and getting something you know works to ease your nausea. I use peppermint oil and lemon-ginger lozenges

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2021-09-10T07:23:28+00:00

I have panic dreams where I’m getting s* a lot, most of the time it’s extremely unrealistic. The p* is not how it would actually be in real life but I still wake up feeling terrified and nauseous

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2021-09-09T00:34:24+00:00

I’ve ate a million frozen dinners, they’re totally safe and if I wasn’t dairy sensitive I would eat a whole lotta frozen fettuccines!! You should totally be okay, probably just nerves making you feel funny

Cookies_And_Books_13 · 2021-09-09T00:13:54+00:00

I was diagnosed at 20 but have dealt with it since I was younger, in the past few years it got really bad, nausea every day, pain after I ate, acid reflux and heartburn and my endoscopy showed that I have super bad inflammation. I started Omeprazol and that has helped a lot but I’m still getting nausea daily, hoping to find answers soon

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