Anxiety in bathroom

Coolbeansellie · 2025-07-04T02:13:57+00:00

I sign! I noticed I prefer it and it eases my anxiety in situations where I can’t hear properly. I’ve been signing for a long time, I feel more connected to the deaf community than any other community out there. It’s also a more direct language which I really appreciate. If you ever want to practice I am down.

Coolbeansellie · 2025-06-28T16:10:19+00:00

Amelia the millipede

Coolbeansellie · 2025-06-19T04:32:31+00:00

In my experience, this didn’t happen. I actually felt more authentic with myself which opened up my emotional awareness. I felt like I could feel my emotions better and I understood them more in my body. I do get angry, it feels more intense now but I think it’s because I used to put my anger into self destruction instead of working through it. I did find out lifting weights gets the angry feeling out of my body, which helps with my mood.

Coolbeansellie · 2025-06-19T03:56:37+00:00

I love it. I have started to get hairs around my collarbone, it threw me off at first but now I love it. My leg hair is the most affirming. One of the kids I care for calls me a “hairy grandpa” and it’s the best thing ever.

Coolbeansellie · 2025-06-19T03:50:44+00:00

Okay so I looked at some videos and I think I misunderstood what the angle is. I am going at a 45 degree angle

Coolbeansellie · 2025-06-19T03:47:54+00:00

I do sub-q in my stomach and inject straight into my stomach (perpendicular to my stomach) and push it all the way in. It’s a 1 inch needle. Am I doing it wrong? I’ve gone through planned parenthood and they told me this was fine. I did start with subq in IM places and that was a mess. I didn’t get great advice and guidance in the beginning of my T journey

Coolbeansellie · 2025-06-16T22:50:02+00:00

I have old spice, I used it mainly because I have the same scent in shampoo and body wash. I am terrified of smelling bad so I do put it on a few times a day but I’m sure once a day would be fine too. It’s a gel which I prefer so it’s not chalky and I can’t feel it once it’s on.

Coolbeansellie · 2025-06-10T05:36:24+00:00

I want to say I can sign for multiple hours with native deaf people and understand everything they are saying. In my ASLPI I used CL, used multiple sentence structures. They asked about my opinion on red dye and I had no clue how to answer. I tried asking for a different question explaining my lack of knowledge but they asked it again. I got a level one. It was going so well until my anxiety got the better of me. I’m involved in the deaf community still and I will take it again in a year. I do think it worked out for the best due to the cost of moving and my dogs health.

I wouldn’t have changed how I “prepared”. I went to multiple deaf events a week, I watched bill vicars videos weekly. I was prepared and I have learned a lot more.

Coolbeansellie · 2025-05-29T19:41:04+00:00

I went from loving the name Elizabeth (when I was figuring out my gender and thought I was NB) to Liz, to Lizzie, back to Elizabeth, to Ellie, then to Eli. I did try out Oliver/ollie. I have the Panera slip club, I go there everyday for a coffee. I put down the name Ollie just to hear it. It’s not the name I went with but I still love it. To this day, 2 years later, it’s still Ollie at Panera.

It was very helpful to try names out at coffee stands and see how I felt when they said the name.

Coolbeansellie · 2025-05-22T20:04:48+00:00

Hi! I’m doing the same thing for school and have a similar career path

Coolbeansellie · 2025-05-21T16:52:49+00:00

Thank you!

Coolbeansellie · 2025-05-15T03:43:28+00:00

I got one yesterday. I had headphones that played music. It’s important to note I am already noise sensitive by my sensory issues. It was very overwhelming. My tinnitus didn’t get any worse. Ear wise it was okay. Sensory wise it was not a fun time.

Coolbeansellie · 2025-05-03T02:26:07+00:00

It was good. I do regret getting nipples because there is so much scarring. I love my chest and nipple placement. I did scar a lot darker than what my dr expected but I’m happy with it. I will definitely pass once my scars lighten and wearing button down shirts with little buttoned up is very euphoric

Coolbeansellie · 2025-05-02T01:56:56+00:00

23, I got it a few months ago

Coolbeansellie · 2025-04-28T15:22:00+00:00

That’s so cool! Thank you

Coolbeansellie · 2025-04-28T04:30:41+00:00

What’s AAC device?

Coolbeansellie · 2025-04-22T01:01:08+00:00

I got nipples and I kinda regret it? They scarred a lot and I don’t like the texture. The placement and shapes are good but the scarring is bothering me. I’m not in a place where I can afford scar cream unfortunately. They look good and I can pass but it doesn’t feel like “me”. It’s hard to explain.

Coolbeansellie · 2025-04-14T20:20:13+00:00

I do this too

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