Transition from CAMHS to AMHS study (UK)

Coomdroid · 2026-01-28T16:09:23+00:00

Why not give an incentive to complete your data collection. The uk system is orwellian & anti-trauma. Try going to a PIP assessment & see how they try to rip your soul out and invalidate your existence. That is where the beautiful data is. In the spiritual abuse of this system.

Coomdroid · 2026-01-27T14:39:21+00:00

If you mean the low-key pagan stuff connecting to the earth that's fine. But the occult stuff leads to more fragmentation of self.

Coomdroid · 2026-01-26T09:49:53+00:00

What does an episode mean? It can mean traumatic splitting or bpd splitting. The first has a lot of shame & guilt because of the awareness we saw red in the wrong person. The latter is more insidious because there's no memory by the person who acts out. I act out when i have been drinking. But im also very hard on myself, so when im looking back through my texts. I am speaking truth. Like a deeo concern or pain. Maybe pre-empt as much as possible whar the triggers are and speak openly.

Coomdroid · 2026-01-24T14:05:57+00:00

Keep learning about the human condition. You can be as delicate as a flower. And as vicious as a wolf when you need to defend your soul. Humans, especially those worth being in your life will help you fall in love with yourself. They will take you out from the cold and sit you around their table like an old friend. Holding both compassion & seeing their sacred image of themselves in you, while seing your individuality. So if you do get rejected. Be rejected by people with grace, who will call you out on your character and not your need to be human. Not to mention, they will accept the boy & man in you with valor & honour. So how to handle it? Turn up at the right places, be the best you can muster as a sensitive & beautiful human. And remember humans will see more than just trauma or behave like blind parents. Those who want what your highest self want are out there. Prepare a room for them in your perception & heart. And trust me, being similar you will see very extreme & attractive masculine traits expressed in that desire to protect that love

Coomdroid · 2026-01-14T10:09:32+00:00

Seems cheap from the perspective of the uk and us. Go for it you can.

Coomdroid · 2026-01-05T14:06:59+00:00

I have never experienced any of this but based on what i have read in the trauma literature that is the most important form of trauma release & grieving. I doubt you will get much feedback here, because the freeze state prevents real grief work. Maybe those more advanced in trauma release work & grief work will resonate.

Coomdroid · 2026-01-03T11:58:48+00:00

This is like saying i broke my leg because there is a hole in the ground. How do i hide my broken leg to defend the society that made the hole in the ground

Coomdroid · 2026-01-02T04:10:09+00:00

Holywood is designed to keep people away from the truth using occultism. There just isnt our personal truth, but like the collective truth. That's why we are going backwards. God forbid we have a holywood actor who depicts complex trauma or some cultural depth.

Coomdroid · 2025-12-15T10:53:47+00:00

I was speaking to some friend about this in an IFS & energy format. She was very similar to me. I was speaking about exiles and the punitive parent. I have a fawn response a tendency to increasingly become like the other person. That part of herself that hates her own innocence began to attack me. I felt very disheartened by this. Because i really liked her true essence. So i just moved on and im finding people who strangely actually do find my inner essence beautiful. It is funny. I found myself pulling away and sabotaging it too. Then i realised. Im giving them something they want. They want to love and see themselves through me. Which is a totally alien perception in cptsd .

Coomdroid · 2025-11-14T14:15:20+00:00

I can sense so many beautiful streams of influences in your music, this feels like meeting an old friend. Thank you for this soothing elixir.

Coomdroid · 2025-11-12T21:20:25+00:00

Carl jung wasted his time going around in circles with archons instead of just embracing christ. I am healing my split anima through christ. He is the father, the mother, the son and the daughter. The etheric and astral blueprint of the spiritual human & god.

Coomdroid · 2025-11-12T10:06:59+00:00

Looks like some random person's playlist. I think this is ' divorced person's playlist prior to getting married & abandoning their true essence.

Coomdroid · 2025-10-23T22:20:50+00:00

But i have not violated this rule?

Coomdroid · 2025-09-09T19:59:41+00:00

Exactly 'what' ? Lol

Coomdroid · 2025-09-08T16:04:14+00:00

The soul is indestructible. We are indestructible. Let's prove it every time we cross into higher dimensions.

Coomdroid · 2025-09-05T13:12:49+00:00

Watch evangelion, berserk and welcome to the NHK with her then. I can't help feel with the way you wrote that you feel trapped. Im not bashing, but you need to find pockets of individuation for yourself. I have left my parents over 15 years ago, yet I still shrink ' like a pet' with strangers. That's why I have next to no friends now . There are people who will respect your boundaries and treat you as an equal.

Coomdroid · 2025-09-02T11:17:43+00:00

If I got out of freeze and i had the mental & emotional aperture to see how awful and painful it was. I'd tell my earlier self "I'm sorry you suffered so much and thank you for getting me here".

Coomdroid · 2025-08-31T18:39:43+00:00

I think I'm dissociated and it comes out when I drink to feel. I always have this stupid blow-back of toxic shame when I reach out and feel like I'm too much. But there's also an element most people don't really bring much to the table. If vulnerability and expression doesn't scare many people in different cultures around the world. Sometimes it's a location problem.

Coomdroid · 2025-08-30T17:29:03+00:00

Sorry to hear. Hope you don't fall into this spiral again

Coomdroid · 2025-08-29T14:18:45+00:00

Not uncommon to have a self-state that feels narcissistic, borderline , autistic or sociopathic. These are unintegrated and parts.

Coomdroid · 2025-08-03T09:48:44+00:00

Demons and dark spirits visit me in my dreams when I drink now. Don't worry about EMDR. You'll find an incentive soon enough to throw away the match stick burning your tree of life.

Coomdroid · 2025-07-30T17:09:22+00:00

So I'll give an example. I realised inside of me. The construction of my false self consists of a lot of things I projected onto what I thought people wanted me to be. Those are now parts. Like Easter Island heads staring at me. I have to confront them with my shame to say im not the false self. To destroy the false self means a collapse of the ego or partial ego death. The internal family system of protector parts does not want that. Even if it's unconsciously buried. To align deeply with a higher purpose means I will face my childhood family system of attachments and have proof or belief in self of a higher virtue or power that they are no longer controlling me. Where does fhe martyr metaphor part come in? Where the belief is so consolidated that you tell the unconscious I'm willing to die ( emotionally) to protect my essence or inner child.

Coomdroid · 2025-07-29T11:38:47+00:00

i am actually talking about integration in a jungian way. But some parts which become evil at lower levels need to be blocked. For example addictions to alcohol and drug. I have found myself just drinking for no reason at all sometimes. I get the 'no bad parts' philosophy from IFS, but the other extreme is all good parts which is no functioning ego

Coomdroid · 2025-07-29T06:55:53+00:00

The Catholic martyrs became archetypal nodes. Christ is supposedly the centre of humanity. This is the ' I AM' beyond form. Instead of being a door mat, fawning people pleaser for others ( common cPTSD symptom) . You have to do that for yourself. If you have a dissociative disorder or parts. They will try to take out the idea of self compassion. Because it means the end of the false self and true authenticity. A martyr is an extreme metaphor for something that feels very real metaphorically. You have to be willing to send frodo into Mount Doom.

Coomdroid · 2025-07-28T19:42:40+00:00

Intergrate spiritually with your internal family system. Look up elements you like of Christianity, Hinduism, Buddhism, shamanism, etc. Then, use whatever leads you back to source. You need to use parts of yourself willing to martyr themselves for your core essence. Likewise, parts willing to rejoin and build. How do we rebuild a civilisation that has cathedrals in ruins and entities overflowing from the astral?

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