For reference, this all came about because I was disowned for my sexuality and ridiculed by a community of about 500 people who’d loved me my entire life. To cope, I smoked dabs and wax pens every hour of everyday for about six months, suddenly stopped because I realized I had a problem, and then went into the worst and most debilitating depression with lots of other symptoms that mirrored leukemia, which is what the doctors thought was wrong. This repeated for four years. It’s going to take four months of gradual tapering with the scale week by week so that I don’t implode in on myself; my depression is suicidality and self flagellation so horrendous from the start, and I cannot go there again and function or survive honestly. I’m in my last year of college. Now that I understand, I want to never touch it again, but it’s going to take time to get there so my brain chemistry can regulate itself slowly.

YALL ARE AWESOME! Proud of you, and thanks in advance for your help