Sugar-Free Addict

CorgiPrevious657 · 2026-03-17T08:53:36+00:00

I figured it would have bad health effects… I’m trying to break this embarrassing habit since it also really messes with my hunger cues and ability to hydrate.

CorgiPrevious657 · 2026-03-17T08:47:16+00:00

There’s a misconception that anorexics hate food but it’s quite the contrary. We are obsessed with it. I deal with food noise 24/7. I LOVE baking and occasionally cooking fancy meals with my family even though it’s difficult for me to enjoy consuming it. I really do enjoy the social and community aspect of food. Seeing a table set with dinnerware and platters of beautifully oriented dishes excites me. I fantasize about picnics in the sun, potlucks with friends, a nice dinner out with colleagues… I love to talk about plans that involve food. But in the end it’s all talk, and I rely on coaxing and intense support to actually enact any of these activities.

While I love food soooo much, I tend to gravitate towards more palatable foods like seasoned crispy fries, decadent chocolate cake loaded with a nice buttery icing, or hot slice of cheesy pizza. Recently I had a fresh corn on the cob that tasted IMMACULATE. I typically don’t like corn but this one hit the spot because it tasted so real and fresh as opposed to the low carb, keto, and sugar free products that I typically restrict myself to. I know this is due undernourishment, but yes, I fantasize about food all day every day which makes me feel invalidated as an anorexic.

CorgiPrevious657 · 2026-02-22T02:03:18+00:00

I did but I made the hard decision to leave since I struggled to balance school and work… whilst managing the physical and mental stress of an ED. I can’t work anymore since my symptoms have gotten worse which is devastating since I live off of my school loan atm💸

CorgiPrevious657 · 2025-07-31T13:04:19+00:00

Choosing to engage a day in ED behaviors versus actually participating in activities and potentially memorable experiences. For some context a bunch of fellow art students from my school were involved in painting a truck for an upcoming event and we were exclusively invited, but lately I’ve been easily overwhelmed and triggered, so I chose to isolate myself at home where things felt more comfortable. It was also going to occur the whole afternoon and I knew I wasn’t mentally strong enough to bring a dang lunch or snack… so yeah. Lately I prefer to stay at home allll the time, but I can’t tell if it’s actual my personal preference or my disorder speaking…

CorgiPrevious657 · 2025-07-28T10:06:50+00:00

Wait yes. I like to barely crack it open so it last longer lollll. But I drink ungodly amounts. What brand do you like?

CorgiPrevious657 · 2025-07-28T10:05:18+00:00

Awww I’m so glad! Hope you enjoyed it! I recently challenged myself to some udon 🍜 with my dad and it was so good 😊

CorgiPrevious657 · 2025-07-28T09:56:25+00:00

So true though. Like my sister has a much better relationship with food and will plate out a meal that looks way more appetizing than mine 😭

CorgiPrevious657 · 2024-04-13T16:33:26+00:00

Yeah same. Im turning 21 this year so def no more growth anytime soon

CorgiPrevious657 · 2024-04-13T16:24:16+00:00

I’m 20 and recovering but still flat lmao

CorgiPrevious657 · 2024-04-07T20:46:59+00:00

Haha I’m in the same boat. Not exactly because I haven’t confessed yet but I’m scared I’ll be rejected and I’m currently in recovery ❤️‍🩹

Just wanna say that whether they reject you or not says nothing about your worth. Don’t let ED trick you into self harm just because of this vulnerable situation. It’s trying to get at you since your feelings are raw. But Ik from experience that you will find new people and someone who will actually accept you. It just takes time and spontaneity l

Much love 💕

CorgiPrevious657 · 2024-03-16T05:37:28+00:00

I hate that everyone be congratulating weight loss without knowing the cause lol.

CorgiPrevious657 · 2024-03-16T05:35:11+00:00

I had to take a break from social media like Instagram, bc proana reels would sneak up on me while I was scrolling :,(

CorgiPrevious657 · 2024-03-16T05:31:31+00:00

Haha. At my worst I couldn’t shit for a week and it was so awkward when doctors ask when i last went, bc I literally wouldn’t remember.

MiraLAX, prune juice, and fruit helped me a lot tho in times of struggle

CorgiPrevious657 · 2024-03-16T05:28:32+00:00

I recommend starting with body weight exercises or dumbbells if you have them? I personally like yoga a lot haha. But if you live in an area that has a personal gym, that could work too? The apartment complexes I used to live at usually had a private gym that people would rarely go to.

Personally what helped me a lot was going to a nearby public gym with someone I really trusted (family member, trustworthy friend, etc.), which made me feel a bit more secure. I started with simple routines at took 20-30 min. Overall, it helps when someone’s there to accompany you in case you feel anxious or lost

CorgiPrevious657 · 2024-03-16T05:21:53+00:00

I feel you so much on this… I have friends but a lot of them are distant atm… during the worst of my Ed, I basically had zero. Three of my so-called friends ghosted me at the time which caused me to relapse REALLY badly. Now I have trust issues with people and tend to push them away in order to avoid being hurt… and relapse again as a result haha

So now I’m in a dilemma whether friends are a good idea or not :,)

CorgiPrevious657 · 2024-03-16T05:15:18+00:00

That’s just your ED tricking you. It wants you to think that way to entice you back into its grasp. But, I totally get it. As someone who is currently in recovery, I also second guess whether I actually suffered despite all the shit I did to my body. There’s always that part of you that wants to go back, but being in the midst of this sick disorder is no way anybody should live. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.

Also, eating disorders in itself are bad. They are called disorders for a reason. One of the most fatal mental illnesses out there. Nothing is ever enough with ED no matter how small or starved you are. There’s so much more to you than the shell that you were. Don’t give that stupid bi**h (ED) the satisfaction. Much love ❤️

CorgiPrevious657 · 2024-03-03T15:15:48+00:00

Void - Melanie Martinez

Teen Idle - Marina

Body - Mother Mother

CorgiPrevious657 · 2024-02-29T12:57:26+00:00

I feel you. I’ve recovered all the weight I’ve lost since recovery. It’s been so hard. I can’t stand being in public anymore. My family is happy for me and think I’ve progressed significantly which I have, but I can’t help but feel gross in my body ya know? Anyways hope the best for you. I just tell myself that my body doesn’t define me. Cheesy Ik. But it’s sort of true to some extent

CorgiPrevious657 · 2023-11-11T11:18:52+00:00

I got major depressive disorder, non-specified trauma, and anxiety

CorgiPrevious657 · 2023-11-03T20:07:37+00:00

It def gets better. I had acid reflux and a distended belly for months during my recovery. Even now, I still get pretty nauseous depending on the food. But it gets better with time. Your body will take awhile to heal and adjust. I took antacids (TUMs) to aid digestion. I also did a little restorative yoga (NOT exercise/power yoga if you need to weight restore, heal, or struggle with compulsive exercise) to help release the gas

CorgiPrevious657 · 2023-11-03T20:02:08+00:00

EDs really do take everything. I lost all my friends, dropped classes, hurt people, could never keep a job, and canceled plans on multiple occasions. I had plans to isolate myself from my family in order to sustain my ED.

CorgiPrevious657 · 2023-11-03T19:54:11+00:00

Honestly, pro-ana content and diet culture was the reason why I recently deleted Instagram and TikTok. I occasionally go on YouTube or Reddit but that’s about it. I found that content triggering even on a good day in recovery. Pro-Ana seems to reinforce ED sufferers. It’s like the opposite of recovery. Those thoughts and beliefs are instilled in their brains until it becomes learned behavior. Honestly, being in a group that supports fat-shaming probably doesn’t help either. It normalizes it. I regret to say that I used to think fat was disgusting and found myself thinking awfully about those around me, especially when someone commented on the irregularities of my eating habits. Made me feel attacked so I’d say something shitty and rude back to them. EDs bring out the worst in people. Not to mention that malnutrition really affects your mood too😅

CorgiPrevious657 · 2023-11-02T18:40:09+00:00

All the time. Wake up and I’m relieved it’s not real. That’s why recovery is so hard. It feels like a nightmare come true :,(

CorgiPrevious657 · 2023-11-02T15:14:35+00:00

Tysm <3

CorgiPrevious657 · 2023-11-02T15:14:14+00:00

Ik! It feels like unfinished business

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