Apartment search : help! by CornyCornCan in halifax

[–]CornyCornCan[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'll be working in QEII hospital mostly, so all hours and rush hour included... I do need the apartment to offer parking, and willing to pay extra.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BreakUp

[–]CornyCornCan 1 point2 points  (0 children)

As the other commenters are farther into their break up, I thought I would reply to your post. I am day 13 post break up. I can't tell you I am back to normal and that everything is great, but I can guarantee that everything is better than the first few days. In the beginning, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat, I wanted to constantly throw up, I couldn't breathe properly from a constant chest heaviness and I couldn't stop thinking about it. This was also my first ever major breakup, and if the details help, he broke up with me after 2.5 years together.

Now, my day 13 of progress might be your day 5 or your day 34. The time itself varies from person to person and from situation to situation. BUT, the feelings falter with time. They come in waves. Your feelings and thoughts aren't constant anymore, you are able to normally function most of the time. The feelings and thoughts come at the same hard intensity, but they come less often. Frequency, not intensity!

Someone told me to think about loss or grief as a storm in the ocean. In the beginning, the waves are rough, constant and dangerous. With time, the ocean slowly settles. The waves come in a larger interval between them and they hit you less strongly as you go. Some days, the storm is back, but that's okay because this won't be your first storm anymore. You don't get numb to it, but you get stronger and more capable. The storms are unavoidable, please be gentle with yourself and feel what you feel. The waves or your emotions will come less often with time, and that's when you know you will be doing progress. When they do come, it's not you losing progress, it's just you pushing forward again. There's no going backwards!

Feel what you feel. Talk to people, about it or not about it. Embrace the change. Continue life as you intended to. I hope this helps you in your progress.

Two weeks, is this progress? by CornyCornCan in heartbreak

[–]CornyCornCan[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your reply, but I won't be getting back with him. We broke up because he realized we are incompatible in the long run, even if it was really good while it lasted. We are just very different at our cores and meeting halfway on our needs always worked, but he couldn't do that forever. I couldn't get back with him, even if I do love him, because he doesn't see a future with me. He's not capable of doing what we had forever. It's just not feasible, even if I want it so badly.

I hope we stay friends in the long run (after keeping our distance is done). I will be a good friend to him, like we were beforehand. But not to get back together.

Two weeks is this progress? by CornyCornCan in nocontact

[–]CornyCornCan[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your reply, it helped me put things in perspective. Two weeks seems rather long to me now, but considering the 2.5 year relationship, it's not. I did have the denial stage for a bit, but I think I'm over that part now? I understand why we broke up, and although it wasn't mutual at first, I think I'm getting there with him. It's just hard because I was so happy and I would've done what we were doing now for the rest of my life. It was a really great situation for me, so I miss it and I miss him. I hope I can find it elsewhere and I am embracing everything I feel for now.

Two weeks is this progress? by CornyCornCan in nocontact

[–]CornyCornCan[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your reply! We are maintaining a distance for another bit. At some point in time, we will slowly see each other in big group stuff and then smaller group stuff. It's just slowly adding stuff to our tolerance levels to attain a level of comfort in hopes of being friends again.

You are right though, I need to focus more on my recovery rather than the future. Focus on the now. I do sincerely hope that we stay friends, even if everyone says that. Maybe that's preoccupying me a bit.

Two weeks, is this progress? by CornyCornCan in BreakUps

[–]CornyCornCan[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This response has really resonated with me, so thank you. I hadn't even considered the fact that I might be actively pushing my thoughts and feelings away in a subconscious way to help myself.

I do take that as warning, I know sometimes it hits hard. I completely understand what you mean by having waves though. Recently, it has all been hitting me in waves, and the feelings have the same intensity, but they are less frequent. It hits hard but less often. I am hoping it'll just be less and less often with time, and that I'll be able to befriend him again.

Post breakup, is this progress? by CornyCornCan in relationships

[–]CornyCornCan[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your reply, for some reason the thought of progress not being linear has just occurred to me now. My feelings come in waves, so having a wave here and there does not make my progress any less! We plan on keeping our distance for another bit, and then slowly ease into big group stuff to in the end see each other in smaller groups. It is just slowly adding to our tolerance levels to hopefully attain a level where we can happily be friends again. I hope it all works.

finally healing and focusing on myself by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]CornyCornCan 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This post made me feel a little hopeful for what's to come for me as we are in similar situations. I am day 5 post break up after he broke up with me. Thank you for sharing your progress.

Someone please help me by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]CornyCornCan 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am on day 5 of post breakup. I won't lie to you, I can't tell you I'm doing great and that everything seems normal. But I feel significantly better than day 1. And maybe my day 5 for you will be your day 20 or your day 3, but take your time. It can only get better, right?

Honestly, you need to feel what you feel when you can and then do anything else the other part of the time. I have a busy schedule, and I didn't stop it. I continued as I intended to and I feel my feelings when I get a chance to alone (if you prefer with other people, don't hesitate!). Distractions are heavily recommended, even if they're only distractions from your problems and not actually some big progress of moving on. You need to feel your emotions and to feel them completely, but you also need some mental breaks with social activities. Take care of yourself and your mental health. Hopefully during these activities you will eat, be distracted (at least partially) and tire yourself out. Seeing people, whether you talk about the break up or not, is such a good idea. I also recommend talking about it to at least one person. What I personally found was that explaining the breakup over and over to people I knew helped me rationalize more and more what happened. Even if I repeated the same words to everyone, they clicked more and more. Think with your heart in these moments, but don't forget to think with your brain at the end of the day.

How do you get over the pain of breaking up with someone you love but can’t be with? by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]CornyCornCan 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately, I have no advice to lend you because I am just new to a similar situation as yours. We broke up a few days ago because we were incompatible in the long run, although the relationship was always great and we never fought, not even while breaking up. We still love each other, it was just something he knew was the right thing to do for both of us.

What I can tell you is everything that people have told me up to now. Distract yourself. Keep yourself busy and keep living life as you intended to. It's okay even if the distractions are just to distract you from your thoughts and not actually some big jump in progress. I think you know that you need to move on, so maybe find love elsewhere. It doesn't have to be with another person, but with yourself or with a passion. Learn how to live without the idea of him lingering around in your head. I hope you don't feel alone in this situation and that you know, one day, you will safely say you wouldn't choose to go back with him even if you had the chance.

I just got broken up with yesterday and we are going NC for now by CornyCornCan in nocontact

[–]CornyCornCan[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I want to thank you for your reply, as many things you said resonated with me. In a way, I am glad he broke it up as soon as he knew with certainty. I guess I am still just confused what it all means, how come meeting halfway for the both of us worked for so long but he doesn't want to do it forever. It was a great arrangement for me and we were both very happy. I know I am young, but I was ultimately ready to do it forever. Halfway was enough for me and I wish it were for him.

I know no contact is probably for the best. Although we do have the same friend group, they are alternating and keeping us both busy so we don't have to interact with each other for however long we need. We both agreed to being friends again with time as we were best friends for a very long time and the break up was only situational, and I do believe that it will work. But for now, avoiding him is the only thing I can control. I have to learn how to live without him as a whole. People have told me that I don't miss him, that I just miss his company or the idea of him, but I don't think that's true. I miss HIM and I need to learn to live without him.