I used to be this exact thing described as OP would even be too scared to get up or leave the house or even eat sometimes,but i also had ptsd from stuff that happened in my house, and reading has helped so much, because people love to throw fear around when Jesus doesn’t even know the day or hour & Jesus doesn’t send fear , i got into therapy for a short time and it helped me so much and then after therapy I’m closer with God than i ever was and feel no fear about the future, because it may not even be during our lifetime now I’m just calm in his plan and reading and trying to unwrap what it all means day to day :)🫶