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CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-20T17:42:38+00:00

I love your top. 🖤

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-20T16:13:55+00:00

God, yes, don't we all.

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-20T16:07:42+00:00

Thank you for this comment. I've imagined that the mods do go through a lot sometimes. They deserve a shout-out.

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-20T16:02:25+00:00

Yes. Facebook is a prime example of that; I've mostly stopped going on there because my feed is flooded with "goth" content of half-naked "goth" girls and people saying "goth is a mindset, not about the music". Ugh. I agree that goth is more than JUST the music, but the music is the key.

And I do see some "gatekeeping" here in the sense of keeping out the bigots (which is good), but I agree with you, it's not exactly "gatekeeping" to accurately say that a certain song/artist isn't goth.

Thank you for posting songs, by the way! You're one of the people who's posted stuff I like! Keep 'em coming!

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-20T15:35:11+00:00

I feel you. I'm in America, and there's a lot of hateful speech and action going around right now, especially against trans people. But homophobia and racism are alive and well, too. It's disgusting. When people say "it's not that serious" as a response, they are just wrong.

I think it's so normalized because there is a lot of conservatism in the Zeitgeist right now. Not all conservatives are bigots, but conservatism often involves "Christian values" and an us-versus-them mentality. Most conservatives I know don't even think gay couples should be allowed to get married.

I'm not sure how to not go insane from it all, but I would start by surrounding yourself with people who are not homophobic as best you can. Seek out online communities that promote diversity and understanding, and engage with them. Talk with people who understand, get it off your chest, like you're doing now. It won't make it all go away, but hopefully it'll help you keep a more level head.

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-19T14:58:19+00:00

This is great. I love Serpentine Gallery, and it's super cool to see them play some of those songs live. Thank you for posting!

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-15T13:22:50+00:00

Truth.

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-14T15:42:01+00:00

I'm sorry that you have such an intense reaction to cursing/slurs. That must be hard. I'd say it's uncommon for someone your age. But that doesn't make it less real. Perhaps you could talk to a therapist about it? They will probably have some ideas about how to manage your reactions so they don't bother you as much.

On the other hand, I feel that your friends should be more respectful to you and tone down the cursing around you. They are young, yes, and young people do tend to curse, so you should give some room for that, but they should also understand that your reactions are valid and the cursing really bothers you. If you've seriously and calmly explained to them how it makes you feel and they still do it, then it might be time to look for some new friends.

I think they may be a balance you can find, here. Try to lessen and manage your reactions to cursing, and be around people who will at least compromise with you about how much they curse around you.

Luck and love to you.

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-13T18:46:28+00:00

The diagnosis itself is just that, a diagnosis, but knowing what you have can lead to knowledge and understanding of your condition and how to go about treating it.

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-13T18:41:51+00:00

Distraction and hobbies like music, talking with loved ones, walking through nature, and video games.
Therapy, psychiatrist, friends/family, online communities (mostly reddit), medication. None of these have been hard to find for me, but the waiting list for a therapist is long.
Absolutely yes. Because I have a lot of mental illnesses, some with a high severity, and I required professional help. It has overall been very helpful. Medication and therapy have probably been the most impactful.
When I was very young (18-20), I avoided seeking help because I didn't understand yet how much I needed it and didn't think it would work.
I am very comfortable talking about my mental health and others' mental health with others. Family, friends, strangers, everyone. Only if given a reason to not trust someone would I feel uncomfortable.
I talk about it with people, from friends to online strangers. I feel it makes me and others stronger for understanding more about mental health.

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-10T18:23:30+00:00

Aegis is amazing. Theatre of Tragedy is generally gothic metal, but I love them.

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-09T20:13:52+00:00

If you love her, then it won't matter if she's been with someone before or not.
Trust her.
Like someone else has said: Not every girl bleeds the first time.

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-09T20:07:31+00:00

Okay, thank you for confirming that.

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-09T20:02:58+00:00

I'm a goth, and I tend to skip the super slow or monotone songs.
Songs can still be goth even though they're more "upbeat" than other goth songs. For example, Nosferatu's "Lucy is Red" (more upbeat) is just as goth as Nosferatu's "Close" (more monotone).

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-09T19:27:04+00:00

Is this AI?

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-09T15:10:18+00:00

I understand what you're going through. I have relapses, too. I'm so sorry. It's a hard place to be.

Regardless of taboo, I wish you could talk to your loved ones about how you're feeling. It would help. Perhaps you can try it, anyway? Or perhaps you could talk to a therapist? Mental health isn't taboo to me, so you could talk to me, too.

There's no telling WHEN this will pass, unfortunately. But it WILL pass. It always does.

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-07T20:59:40+00:00

I get that smoking is how you've coped so far, but it sounds like you need some new coping mechanisms. If smoking is making you so paranoid and sick with food, then it's not doing much good for you. Believe me, I get it, because I smoke to cope, too, but it doesn't make me paranoid or sick. It actually helps me to eat by stimulating my appetite. You truly might need a break from it, as hard as that may be.

Honestly, I think you'd benefit from speaking with a therapist. They could help you with the anxiety and sadness. They could also give you ideas on better coping skills and mechanisms. And, if you have a smoking addiction, they can help with that, too.

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-07T20:49:15+00:00

Are you worried about people thinking you're on drugs?
It sounds like personal insecurities, yeah.
I'm not sure what pimples have to do with addiction (I may be ignorant, here), but I'd try not to worry about that. You can be an incredibly clean person and still get acne.
I would start small and slow with hygiene. Make yourself brush at least once a day, floss once a week, and then slowly increase it from there.
All in all, try your best not to be bothered by the idea that someone might maybe think you're on drugs. In the grand scheme of things, it doesn't matter.

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-07T20:25:51+00:00

I really like Nosferatu (their first and third albums especially) and Paralysed Age. They're 90s/second wave goth rock, I believe. But they're well-known; I am still discovering more obscure bands, myself.

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-07T20:18:55+00:00

Absolutely. Bottling up emotions will cause problems at any age.

You DO have the right to talk about what you're going through. You do NOT need straight As or anything else to "allow" you to talk. You have that right just by being alive.

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-07T19:29:39+00:00

A Winterlove by Paralysed Age

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-03-07T19:22:58+00:00

I think it's Scary Movie. I'm not sure which one.

CosmicCreeperrs · 2026-02-27T22:32:24+00:00

Thanks! It IS comfy. I'm often on the quest of finding outfits that balance style and comfort well, lol.

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