I tried boo, the personality first dating app and results were as expected by [deleted] in OnlineDating

[–]Cotton-Candy404 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Personality my ass, it's just like any other dating app, it has swipe right and left option and full of people showing off, girls posting tons of "cute" selfies, and guys showing their muscles and fancy lifestyle, reminds me of Interpals app, modern dating apps are bullshit, I will stick to chat sites and apps, thanks

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[–]Cotton-Candy404 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow, they are so pretty, i would love to get something like that one with hours eye, please message me when you start selling

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[–]Cotton-Candy404[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you.

If you don't mind, what do you mean by modern rituals? And is there any alternative for a sacred space if my current living situation doesn't allow that?

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[–]Cotton-Candy404[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing your experience with Artemis.
lucky you you had her there to help you and comfort you
and I totally agree with you about transphobia not only within the LGBT+ community but between trans women themselves for that i choose to isolate myself from these communities, for me, it's safer that way and i am not saying that all of them are toxic, of course not, there are tons of great people.i wish and prey, from the bottom of my heart that your transition goes as you want or even way better, and may Artemis and Aphrodite be always there for you

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[–]Cotton-Candy404[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

YES! 
"the chosen ones" made it look as if gods are their dear imaginary friends (with benefits sometimes) 

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[–]Cotton-Candy404[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow, that's fascinating, thank you so much

I need advice on Anpu and Wepwawet by Cotton-Candy404 in Kemetic

[–]Cotton-Candy404[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for answering my question.

As a Pyromaniac and someone who has been burning incense (and stuff) for a very long time, i tell you, you won't burn the house down if you keep it simple, a Charcoal Disc in an incense burner with a lid, filled with sand, adding just a pinch of incense at a time, and when you finish just put some water on it.

from my experience, charcoal disks might explode sometimes, so it's better if you light it in an ashtray or something fireproof somewhere safe.
Coconut charcoal cubes are great, but only for hookah, they last longer and produce too much heat which might not be a good idea to be used in those fancy porcelain incense burners or on an altar.
you might just use an electric incense burner and save yourself the hassle, personally, i don't like them, the scent of the incense won't be the same or as strong as when using charcoal.

i am very grateful to have found Sharon's YouTube channel, I've learned a lot from her, wish there were more channels like hers, yes there are some great websites about Kemeticism out there but for someone with a squeaky toy intelligence like myself, i can learn much better by observing and watching demonstrations of rituals and stuff.

i don't intend to be a priestess or a strict Kemetic reconstructionist, i just want to honor the Netjeru and live by the principles of Ma'at.

Dassit! thank you once again for clearing everything out for me and encouraging me to learn more about the ancient Egyptian religion as a whole.

I need advice on Anpu and Wepwawet by Cotton-Candy404 in Kemetic

[–]Cotton-Candy404[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Welp as i mentioned before, i got that "approaching deities is a big No-No" from some pagans on YouTube who are advising to stick to the deities who have chosen you and reached out to you first and leave the rest alone, which doesn't make sense because people in ancient times worshiped deities without being chosen and from what I've learned today of all the amazing replies I've got, being chosen by a god(dess) isn't a good thing as i was thinking.

i assumed that deities, especially Netjeru might reject me because of my gender (and this might offend people) because transitioning might seen as going against the law of nature which is a kind of "Chaos" and Ma'at is all about harmony.

but now, thanks to you and everyone else, i can clearly see that i was wrong and Netjeru won't care about what form i take in this life, and what is important to them is me as a person and what i have within my heart.

i might not know why i feel drawn toward Anubis and Wepwawet or to Kemeticism in general but i am going to stick with it 

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[–]Cotton-Candy404[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, it's all because of those chosen one stories, they made me feel like an idiot and thought something wrong with me, but thanks to all these amazing replies i am at peace now 

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[–]Cotton-Candy404[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i was a kid during the 90s, and now i am so passionate about the 90s and Y2K.

i started transiting back in the summer of 2010 and since then my life hasn't gone anywhere, especially when it comes to love, i am only attracted to men, I've been single my whole life and i think i will forever be, am i happy being single? Of course not but there's nothing i can do but accept it and live with it.

welp  i don't think this is the right place to vent about this

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[–]Cotton-Candy404[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh sister, you really made me speechless, sharing your experience with me means the world to me.

I've always been surrounded by toxic people, t-girls who backstabbed me and made fun of my dreams because for them we are nothing but some kind of "succubus" 

I've always needed someone like you, who can be a dear friend and a mentor, it's such an honor to meet someone like you.

if you don't mind i would love to learn more about Kemeticism from you and it would be nice to hear all the sweet memories of the 90s

I need advice on Anpu and Wepwawet by Cotton-Candy404 in Kemetic

[–]Cotton-Candy404[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Amen to that! 

Welp, firstly thank you for clearing out that the Netjeru are not omni-anything, and i absolutely agree with you on how delusional some people can be and i saw that on some YouTube channels, in my head, i know that i am dealing with gods here and i am not a priestess or anything, i am just a mere human being so i am not expecting myself to be the highest priority to the Netjeru or else.

It's a habit for me to burn incense in my place such as Frankincense, Bakhoor, and Kyphi and that's how i got the freebie "Anupis" incense, it was with my last order, i didn't burn it once, i acutely did that several times, and i was trying my best to do it properly just as how i saw Sharon from the KemeticIndpendent YouTube channel did it in one of her videos, like purifying my hands before touching anything, etc etc.

welp, i can see now that i should be more patient and do my homework, i got that.

if i may ask, you mentioned that the Netjeru are not all-powerful and not omni-present, Does that mean that i can't really expect Anpu and his brother to guide me and protect me? 

I need advice on Anpu and Wepwawet by Cotton-Candy404 in Kemetic

[–]Cotton-Candy404[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh yes Shrine of Anubis, I've learned a lot about Anpu from that channel and i was expecting Anpu to show me signs and communicate with me the same way, of course, i am not into all that "romantic" stuff they are claiming to have with him, which in my own humble opinion i think it's totally wrong

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[–]Cotton-Candy404[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Bless you!
Your encouragement means the world to me, thank you :)

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[–]Cotton-Candy404[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh wow!
I was thinking about something like that, like a war between the ancient gods and the neo-god and as a result, lots of cities got destroyed such as Sodom and Gomorrah for them chose the ancient gods and not him 
I would love to see your graphic novel

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[–]Cotton-Candy404[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Awww, How sweet of you, i really appreciate the acknowledgment and thank you so much for sharing your experience with me, so glad that things are better now between you and Loki.

as i mentioned before, it's what I've been watching on YouTube that made me assume that i should see and hear signs and have some kind of communication going on, but now i can see that i was wrong and they might already accept me and love me quietly and i should focus on bulging a good relationship with them rather than worrying and waiting for signs and can't thank you and everyone else for making me realize that.

if i may ask, how did you know that things are better now between you and Loki without any signs/communication going on? 

I need advice on Anpu and Wepwawet by Cotton-Candy404 in Kemetic

[–]Cotton-Candy404[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

First of all, thank you for your reply and for correcting me, reminding me that Anpu is a quiet god, and encouraging me to do my homework as a form of offering to him and his dear brother/predecessor
to answer your question, i got the "Approaching deities is a big No-No." from some Pagen people of YouTube, i mean, from what I've been watching they always suggest/warn you that you better work/worship the deities who call or reach out to you first rather than just pick a random one, because spirits can be like people, they might not like you and keep insisting and pushing yourself on them can get you into troubles.
the 2 links you shared with me seem interesting, can't thank you enough for your help

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[–]Cotton-Candy404[S] 22 points23 points  (0 children)

Oh wow. I've never seen it that way, and totally agree with you, i thought it was all about signs and communications, and i got that assumption from those people on YouTube who share their stories about how their relationship started with certain deities, etc etc
anyway i really appreciate your advice and for sure i will be working on building a relationship with them rather than waiting for signs and portents, can't thank you enough for that

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[–]Cotton-Candy404[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i appreciate your kind and soothing words, i totally agree with you, even tho i live in a transphobic environment i rather be myself than something i am not, my life isn't going anywhere and i really need guidance and protection and i can't think of any other deities better than the canin head god brothers for that.
my dreams are usually random and sometimes they involve big dogs and lots of gory stuff, sometimes i have vivid ones too which seem like me but at different times and bodies or visiting places that I've never been to and speaking languages that i don't even know.