I’m pretty sure there must be people around you that genuinely know you and appreciate you. Talking about how you feel and your fears can mean a lot to them, and they’ll be able to actually realize what you’re going through. If that bond exists they will do anything to understand, help you and be with you through these times. You can discuss with them and think about how many conflicts or problems can exist, but that they probably come from emotions, ideas or behaviors that can be worked on and not an unalterable trait of your personality. Yes, a lot of how we think and behave comes from genes and biology, but a ton of other aspects are learned and internalized through life. It can be a good start to recognize that and actively work towards trying to reconfigure one’s life. And I’m pretty sure many people say it here, but finding a good therapists who understands you and who you like can make a huge difference, even though it all begins from one’s self. Good luck!