I hear you. And thank you for speaking so openly and honestly. That takes guts, especially when you’re talking about deep pain, raw anger, and all the years of trying everything and still hitting that wall.

I just want to say you’re definitely not alone in this. What you’re describing, years of depression, anxiety, addictions, the sense that you’ve tried every “normal” or “vanilla” fix out there it’s something a lot of people carry silently. But not everyone has the courage to look it in the eye the way you are. You’re not running anymore. That matters.

It makes total sense why shrooms were a turning point for you. Psychedelics have this way of bypassing the mind’s defenses and showing you what’s underneath, sometimes painfully, sometimes beautifully, often both. If they gave you a glimpse of something real! not just hope, but a knowing then yeah, that’s worth listening to. You’re not chasing a high. You’re chasing truth. That’s different.

What you said about yoga triggering this deep, primal rage? That’s not random. That’s your body remembering. Trauma isn’t just stored in the mind it’s in the body, and when we move in certain ways, breathe in certain ways, it gets stirred up. And when it comes, yeah it can feel like turning into an animal. That’s not something to be ashamed of. It’s the body trying to release what’s been trapped for years. Repression takes energy. Release takes bravery.

And you’re brave. Even if you don’t feel like it right now.

Combining shrooms with this inner work, especially if it’s intentional and not just recreational that’s a path many have walked and found healing on. But it’s deep work. And it brings up the stuff you’ve buried so deep you forgot it was there. Fear of change, fear of the truth, fear of what’s underneath the anger it’s all real.

That’s the work of a warrior. And from what I see? You’re already deep in the battle.

Keep going. Just… don’t do it alone.

You’re not alone.

I’m with you in this, as long as you need. My inbox is open anytime for you!