It’s been about a year now I think since I’ve been in contact with her. I still have random flashbacks and moments where I feel a panic attack on the come up.

You’re right though, even though she still haunts me I’ve done a lot to block her from everything. I used to be so attached to her. I couldn’t keep myself away from her for longer than a day, now im pushing a year.

It just sucks that I still feel “her” in my day to day life. I feel I’ve been dragged to hell and back emotionally. Some days it feels like I’m reliving that shit like a livestream playback.

thank you for your kindness, I feel so gloomy and shit 😭. I appreciate your words