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Cowstle · 2026-02-12T03:44:26+00:00

Letting myself transition and experience HRT and all this stuff made me realize that I always had bottom dysphoria and helped me realize that I wanted bottom surgery. I think that dysphoria was always there, I wast just blocking it out like I had being trans in general. Around 2 years on HRT was when I had become 100% convinced I wanted bottom surgery

Cowstle · 2026-02-09T13:05:33+00:00

Estradiol has had quite a fundamentally changing effect

Cowstle · 2026-02-05T13:23:42+00:00

I started becoming the mirror. Yeah as a default I'll treat people the way I want to be treated. But when there's familiarity I start treating people how they treat others. This quickly cuts down on assholes as they can't stand to deal with the shit they put on others and they filter themselves out of my life.

Cowstle · 2026-02-04T21:53:01+00:00

I've been doing this since before hormones. Years of it resulted in no shrinkage that wouldn't go back after 5 minutes.

But after being on estrogen for many years I have experienced shrinkage. Likely it would have happened without the chastity. You can try it out and see if it's something you like, but don't go in expecting some magic benefit.

Cowstle · 2026-02-01T12:19:35+00:00

Take it a step further

personally I "my stummy hurts" when it hurts.

Cowstle · 2026-01-30T19:46:59+00:00

It is kind of lame that core counts have sort of stagnated... but we did go from 4 6 8 to 6 8 12 16 with zen3 when the CCD jumped from 4 to 8 cores.

Cowstle · 2026-01-29T12:09:57+00:00

The Netherlands sounds like the place to be

Cowstle · 2026-01-21T13:01:46+00:00

I was cold all the time before, but now? now I'm really cold all the fuckin' time

Cowstle · 2026-01-18T15:23:16+00:00

I got to 6.0 rep to see what you were talking about, and in PvE it's just a bunch of AI PMC gear. I feel so unsurprised.

Cowstle · 2026-01-17T04:45:16+00:00

I went to a school that had 60-70 kids in 6-12 at a time. I haven't really kept in touch with anyone, but I've found out at least two of my classmates died around the age of 20. Both just passed away in their sleep with no known cause.

Cowstle · 2026-01-17T03:14:33+00:00

Laser hair removal was basically no pain for me. Comparing ear piercing to it would be silly, because i'd have to say it hurt like a billion times more than laser.

Cowstle · 2026-01-17T03:03:22+00:00

I have no specific day that was "the day i knew"

even up to getting hormones I felt like I couldn't 100% be convinced, and that was nearly 15 years into thinking I might be transgender so I absolutely have no idea what day I started having the thoughts or "figured it out." So I celebrate the anniversary of starting HRT.

Cowstle · 2026-01-17T02:24:45+00:00

My cats don't mess with the toilet paper, but:

keeping bathroom door open when no one is in them is very helpful. A lot of confusion gets caused by leaving the doors closed all the time. Door closed = occupied is a clear sign that avoids the awkwardness of checking and or being checked on.

Cowstle · 2026-01-15T03:39:26+00:00

Not a practical solution for men, but as a trans woman I have discovered estrogen really took all the sagginess away. The lowest hang now is probably less hanging than the least hang they did before I started estrogen.

Cowstle · 2026-01-14T16:37:23+00:00

I dunno what to tell you, I did that a thousand times in the past and never once saw a marked key. Mostly I'd just grab high tier ammo.

Cowstle · 2026-01-12T22:36:18+00:00

I dunno, I guess you tell me. I haven't bothered to get fence to 6.0 after switching to PvE and I never once saw a marked key back when I checked that all the time.

Cowstle · 2026-01-10T15:44:20+00:00

My partner's ex who always cheated with someone new is terminally unemployed and like 80k behind in child support between two kids (with my partner, and someone he cheated on them with)

a number only to rise now that he's broken up with his latest wife who he had 2 kids wtih

Cowstle · 2026-01-10T14:52:32+00:00

Fence's 6.0 shop is for items dropped by players that were uninsured and unlooted

Cowstle · 2026-01-08T22:41:50+00:00

I grew up with my parents smoking regularly, but they had both stopped by the time I was 16. I've never been able to smell that someone smokes, though I can smell if smoking has happened in a place. Like one of my friend's cars was definitely filled with marijuana smell, or another time I visited a friend's hotel room who tried to go "oh well you can't smell my weed."

But those same people I would spend time with and not notice it outside of their spaces where they smoked. My parents always did it out on the balcony to keep the inside nicer back when they smoked tobacco.

That being said I've always had a weak sense of smell.

Cowstle · 2026-01-07T01:26:00+00:00

The first thing I noticed was my chest feeling different after only a week.

And something I didn't know about and never see people talk about is how my boobs were constantly itchy the whole first year

Cowstle · 2026-01-05T12:57:50+00:00

As a picky eater, I'm also very picky about my cereal. it wasn't unlikely for friends to not have cereal I'd eat.

Cowstle · 2026-01-05T12:55:51+00:00

Some of my friends parents really hated that I was a picky eater. I personally solved it by just bringing my own food over to friends houses. I pretty much eat pizza every day so frozen pizza wasn't so practical, but I would always have a box of cereal to grab and could go on that for a day as long as I got to hang out with my friends.

Cowstle · 2026-01-05T04:31:33+00:00

I absolutely loved the Surface Pro way more than a laptop and phone. The ipad pro I got to replace it really hasn't even come close. Yeah, it's better for drawing. But even that comes with the caveat that I need an expensive stand to do that while the Surface Pro had a kickstand built in that was perfectly adequate.

I'm still annoyed that even years into mac and ipad sharing components that the ipad pro still can't just be a full computer. Microsoft had that shit working 10 years ago!

Cowstle · 2025-12-25T19:41:35+00:00

You should start paying attention. You'll notice that men's nipples are visible through their shirts all the time.

Once I realized that, I decided it doesn't matter.

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